Author: Midnight Demon

Taylor is driving me insane

One of my Twitter followers is also a swiftie and she posted lyrics of a new Taylor song but I am not able to locate it anywhere. I have no idea where to find it. And I am mad. I just bought a new song today. It is part of her Midnights album. I didn’t buy the album just the song. I already have two versions of this album. I didn’t need a third. Another swiftie posted the song on Twitter and OMG. I am in love with this song!! I need to have it!!

My barber texted me saying he isn’t going to be in tomorrow so I got my haircut today. I returned the library book and then went to Starbucks for my mocha and a grilled cheese sandwich. It was a lot of walking. My knee was hurting me when I woke up today. I think I might have done something to it when I fell a few weeks ago. I need to take a shower to get the hairs off my head. Plus I have been sweating so I smell. UGH. I hate showering so much.

I have been hit with grief a few times today. I have been thinking about my mother. My heart is aching so much. I’ve been listening to Taylor most of the day. I got her new song Hits differently. It is a good song. Not as powerful as the other one that I am unable to get right now. I might go to the cemetery this weekend. I am not sure how I am going to get there. It is quite a walk to my mother’s grave as it is on the other end of the cemetery. I am not sure where the bus stop is though.

I just took my night meds. I am going to try and stay awake until the game starts but it is doubtful as I am so fricken tired. My allergies are making me miserable. I just want to sleep.

Grocery delivery day and other things

I was home alone when my delivery came. I had to bring all the stuff in the house and up the stairs. I left the water downstairs. Someone else can bring that up when they come home. I am still trying to figure out how to place my Gatorade bottles. I brought up a bag and a gallon of water. I will be bringing up a bag every time I go back downstairs.

I had a nice cold cut sandwich. The Virginia ham was sliced thick. I hate when it is thick. I also made an iced tea. I haven’t had a cup in so long. My legs are killing me and my chest is throbbing for some reason. I need to rest, maybe nap. I slept through the night finally. I woke up before my alarm sounded. I wanted to get up around 9 but I didn’t. I got up an hour later and then had two cups of coffee.

It’s so much cooler today than it was yesterday. The wind is making it feel colder than what it is. Pride is starting next week and I want to hang a trans flag in my room or the pride flag with trans and inclusion on it. I don’t know where to get it without doing a google search. I just checked Amazon and just ordered a flag and a trans t-shirt.

I keep going up and down stairs. I had to use the bathroom so brought up another couple of bags. My legs are killing me. I don’t know how many times I have gone down and up again. It’s a lot. And I still am not done yet. It will get done, if not tonight, then tomorrow.

I am feeling so tired. I hate this. I know I did a lot and I deserve to be tired right now but I just want to lay down and sleep. I got to get my haircut. I might go tomorrow rather than Saturday. I don’t know. My chest is bothering me with nerve pain. My right side is swollen and hard. It hurts when I press on it. I hope it goes away in time.

I woke up around 2am and didn’t fall back to sleep. I had to get up at 8 so I didn’t want to fall asleep so got up around 7. Had my 1st cup of coffee. Did the business with my sisters and then went to bed as I was starting to feel dizzy from lack of sleep. I ordered my groceries and stuff and laid down. Stupid phone kept going off so I couldn’t really rest. Then when I did doze off my phone rang. Ugh. I got up.

I had more coffee. Don’t know what happened to my mug so got another favorite out of the cabinet. Then I ordered pupusas from my favorite Spanish restaurant. I got some for my niece too as she loves them.

Game is on late again tonight. They lost the last two games. I am not happy. But the crummy pitcher is now been moved to the bullpen. Thank God he is out of the rotation. He sucks.

It’s nice today with Temps in the 70s. It was cold this morning when I left the house. I might go out Fri to return the library book I borrowed. I know Sat I booked a time with my barber. I think it is at 1130 but I don’t remember. It’s the holiday weekend. Anniversary of my uncle’s passing is next week. Can’t believe it has been a year already. He is buried next to my mother. I miss her so much. Yesterday I was feeling so down. Today it is a little better. Just wish I wasn’t so damn tired.