Category: depression

I know places

I woke up early and ordered breakfast. It was huge and delicious. I had a cup of coffee and then I went to Starbucks to work on my presentation. I still need to work on my slides. I returned my library book and got the second book in the series. I just hope I can read my handwriting. I went home afterwards as my meds were not going to be ready. My damn migraine med is out of stock after I was told it was going to be ready after 12. I am pissed about this. I am supposed to take my dose tomorrow but now it doesn’t seem like that is going to happen. Might happen Friday. I will call tomorrow and see when it will come in. My gaba has been called in and is all set. I will pick that up either before or after class. Depends if how early I leave tomorrow. I need to buy a bottle of water as I am out.

I spent the last few hours just listening to music and on social media. I tried taking a nap but couldn’t really rest. Every time I laid down my damn phone would go off with a message. I’ve had more email come through my phone the past few days than anything.

I cannot wait till I can take off this Holter monitor. It is so damn itchy. It’s driving me crazy. I know I had a couple of events today as I came up the stairs I was kind of winded when I came home. I didn’t activate the button because it is my normal. I don’t know how long it will take to get results. I don’t know if the hospital does it or the company does it.

I have to give the presentation tomorrow and I am wicked nervous about it. It has been a while since I had to present in front of a class. I hope I do ok and don’t fumble over words. I sent a message to the professor but she didn’t respond. It might have been because I forgot to put the class in the subject line. Shit, that reminds me, I was supposed to read chapter 4 and I never did. Omg I have no idea where time went. One minute it was 3pm and the next it was 8pm. I spend too much time on social media. I got to work on powerpoint slides and I hope I can post in them. It’s been a long time since I worked in powerpoint.

Ran out of spoons

I had some very weird dreams that gave me headaches. I woke up around 10 to take my meds. I checked my messages. There was a test result. I thought it would be the urine culture but it was not. It was a female test and I was so fucking pissed. I had a message from my pcp and I almost said something but I didn’t. I just said that I was feeling better and that I was going to reach out to neuro to see if I could get an earlier appointment than Nov. I tried but there isn’t. I was placed on a cancellation list. A lot of good that will do. The nurse is going to try and set me up with the neuro NP. So that is something.

I had my two cups of coffee and then I shaved and brushed my teeth. I planned on doing a few errands and then going to Starbucks but I ran out of spoons. I was so damn tired. I ordered food for lunch. I tried to nap but I couldn’t really sleep. I just rested. I plan on working on my paper presentation. I bought the wrong kind of index cards. I thought they were lined but they were blank. Ugh. Oh well.

I have to go out tomorrow to return my library book as it is due. I also need to mail my ballot. I also need to work on my school stuff. I am glad there isn’t anything “extra” this week for class. I wouldn’t be able to handle it. I think I am going to have my pumpkin pie ice cream for dessert. I want something sweet.

Took a chance

I decided to take my exam today. It was easier than I thought it was going to be. Now I can concentrate on the other stuff I need to do for class this week before Thurs. Then I can pack for the weekend. I can’t believe the wedding is this weekend already. I am so excited.

I am still headache free. I had some good sleep, though I still had some weird dreams. I dreamt I was at the hospital in the back and playing basketball only to get a pseudo-asthma attack. That was all I remember. I know I had another dream but I don’t remember it.

I finished the library book last night and man, it ended with a cliffhanger. Now I have to see if there is another book that continues the story. It is all very interesting. There are so far four books in the series. I just requested the second book. This is such a good distraction from neuroscience! I love reading this mystery novel. It really got me going last night. I had to stop and then go back to it. I am not quite sure why I had to stop reading once I finished the chapter and not go immediately to the next one. It’s like I had to stop and think about what I read before continuing. Most of the time I was just saying WTF. The writing is just amazing.

I am sort of tired. I miss baseball. There are playoff games but the teams that are playing I am not too interested in. I just wish the Snakes to lose. I don’t know when they start playing. I am sort of depressed but I am masking it. I have to otherwise I think I will crash.

A much better day

I woke up kind of mid-morning. I had some studying to do. I tried to read but kept being distracted. I couldn’t find what I was looking for so I was getting frustrated. I couldn’t remember where I read what I read. I would have to go through everything and it would take some time. I am so frustrated. I don’t know how tedious this exam is going to be. I might take it tomorrow rather than Tues just to get it out of the way. I have to do stuff for the group and my paper presentation for Thurs. Ugh so much to do this week. Then I have to pack for the weekend for the wedding. I realized I bought the wrong color tie. Ugh. I just bought the right color one. Thank god for next day delivery from Amazon.

I feel ok finally. No headache but I am still kind of tired. I rested for a bit after I tried to study for a bit. I made chicken and roasted potatoes. It was good. I am still craving a burger. I might buy some tomorrow. I hope the store is open. Tomorrow is a holiday. I don’t know how the buses will be running. I did my meds for the week. I also shaved. My cousin trimmed the back of my neck today. I was glad as it was getting thick.

It’s been a cold rainy day. My sister put the heat on so the pipes wouldn’t freeze. The heat came on in the middle of the night and I heard it come on. I had to go pee around the time it came on. Other than that, I pretty much slept through the night. I did have some weird dreams but nothing to cause headaches or migraines, thank god. I needed some decent sleep.