Category: depression

I had bad and weird dreams all night. I woke up with a migraine at 3. I stayed up for a little bit. My phone needed an update and I reluctantly installed it. I didn’t ok it after the install. My med alarm never went off and I over slept. Thank god I set an alarm for 10. It wasn’t enough time for coffee. I used the bathroom and then brushed my teeth. I checked the bus schedule and a bus was coming now. Next one wasn’t coming for a half hour. I felt like crap. My head was still hurting. There was no time for coffee. Indecided to take a cab to my appt.

I was early and didn’t care. The medical assistant was a little pleasanter today. My blood pressure was high. My tooth was hurting. I waited for the NP. She came in with a social work intern. We went over my issues. I said I was still having palpitations so she ordered a holter monitor. She said she was going to reach out to neuro as my appt was more than a month away. I asked about taking gabapentin for the pins and needles and she agreed. She gave me a script for 300 mg. Hopefully the holter monitor will show I’m in sinus rhythm and there isn’t anything concerning about the palpitations.

I was two hours early for class. So I tried to print off the article for class. Except it wouldn’t allow me to. Apparently I had to download an app to do it. Soon as the professor came into class she asked me if I wanted to present it early and I freaked out. I still haven’t read the paper. I said I’d like to do it on the day I requested, which is like two weeks from now. I asked if I need to present slides or something. I don’t but the prof can handle figures if I need them. Class was wicked long when you don’t feel good. She started early and went over how the exam is going to be. A mix of everything, format wise. I hate that. I like it when it’s multiple choice. It’s open notes and we have two hours. The quiz is up. We can take it multiple times until we get 100.

I’m on my way home. I’m hungry. I haven’t eaten anything all day. I need to pick up my meds. There is a video I need to watch for class. I also need to work on the build a brain project. We got a day extension on it today. I am tired and just want to sleep. I got to talk to my sister about my disability payments. I got a letter yesterday and I’m confused by it. I still got to go to the office. Maybe I will tomorrow morning if I wake up before 10. Crossing my fingers it will happen.

Feeling like crap

I have been feeling poorly all day. The toothache is bad. I tried looking for dentists that took my insurance but couldn’t find any that were close by. I took some more ibuprofen. I have been feeling feverish all day but no fever. I managed to shave and brush my teeth. I still need to shower.

I wanted to do some schoolwork but I feel so lousy. I haven’t been able to just do it. I am tired and just want to sleep. The professor just put up two weeks of stuff. I feel like I am drowning in this class. I just can’t get going. There is a ton of information.

I haven’t eaten today because my mouth hurts so bad. I don’t really know what to eat. I might roast some zucchini. I don’t know. I don’t really feel cooking. Maybe I will make PB&J.

I have an appointment tomorrow with the NP for follow up with my blood pressure. I have to leave the house early. I think I am going to walk to the station that is up the street. The good news is that the Starbucks near the hospital is open again so I can stop by before going to the red line. I have class after the appointment. It’s going to be a long day. I think I will bring some ibuprofen with me just in case my tooth acts up.

Saturday Blog 28092024

I slept through the night. I woke up to pee and wanted to go back to sleep but I had to go get a suit. I had enough half and half for one cup of coffee. I checked my messages. My professor sent two emails. One was for a video to watch before class on Tues and the other was about the exam study guide. I am feeling overwhelmed. I had my coffee and something to eat. Yesterday when I went to get my meds at the pharmacy, I saw what I thought were protein pancakes that I liked so I grabbed them. They turned out to be waffles. They were still good. After I had my coffee and waffles, I went upstairs to get dressed. I really just wanted to go back to bed.

We drove to the store north of Boston to find a suit. And it was a challenge as I was between sizes. If there was a 47, it would have been perfect for me but there was not. The person helping me was wonderful. I learned my neck and arm size for shirts. Of course they didn’t have it. I am hoping the shirt I wore for my mother’s funeral will work. I have to get it cleaned at the dry cleaners. I bought a tie and shoes on Amazon. I hope the shoes are comfortable. I never bought shoes online before.

We came home and my brother in law took me grocery shopping so I could get some half and half. I needed another cup of coffee. One cup was not going to do it. I also got pumpkin muffins. They were so good. I wish they had pumpkin seeds on them. After I put the groceries away, I did my schoolwork. It took a while to find a discussion to reply to. I was being very picky. It was hot in my room so I turned the AC on. I need my room to be cold. My headache came back. I have a toothache that is annoying the shit out of me. I have to get a cleaning soon so will see a dentist about it then. I haven’t decided where to go just yet. I am having neuropathy pains in my head and it doesn’t feel good. So I guess this headache is a migraine. I can never tell what the fuck it is. It annoys me so much. I never know what triggers the migraine. I just become annoyed and irritated by sounds and light. Usually by then it is too late to do anything. I never learn.

Sox have two games left in the season. I plan on listening to the last game tomorrow. I hope Joe calls it as he is retiring and he will be missed. I can’t believe the season is over. I don’t really know what I will be doing this evening. Probably reading the library book. I need to go over the exam study guide. I got so much to do for this class and I don’t know what to do first. I am so overwhelmed.