Category: depression

Migraine activity continues

Since Friday, I have had migraine activity. Some has been straight up pain, other times, I feel neuropathy around my head. I thought it was over as I woke up at 4am in no pain and was clear headed. I went to Starbucks and when I came home, my head was all tingly, like pins and needles. I contacted my neuro today and she is going to try a thing of steroids. I can’t think of what the term is called. If it doesn’t work, I am going to go to ED. Sounds are annoying me and so is light. I am glad today is cloudy, cool, and rainy. Only problem is neuro is going to put the script to the Square’s pharmacy and not the one around the corner from me so I will have to go out again.

My DMH case worker is back from vacation. She told me there is an event at the center where there is peer to peer support from individuals like me with chronic mental illness. I am not sure if it is a paid position or volunteer. It’s Thursday and I meet with my pdoc that day. I would have to go into Boston before my appointment so I could be there at the time the event happens. I hate not being on my laptop for his appointments because my phone does funky things with zoom. Last time it didn’t connect and I had to go one some other site to see him.

This blog isn’t going to be long because I am struggling to see as my head is pounding and I am nauseous. Damn, I forgot to take out burgers for dinner tonight. Guess I am having ramen, if my niece didn’t eat it all. She and I like the same foods so she eats mine but never replenishes it. I replenish and she eats. She is a mouse. I don’t mind but stuff is expensive and I sometimes want the stuff I buy, like my mac and cheese. I meant to buy it today and forgot.

I sent out two books today. I went to the post office and mailed it out. I also got customs forms for the two people I need them for. I hate filling it out as I have to put a value on the book and I have a hard time doing that. Hopefully my uncle’s check will come today so I can pay off my tuition for the month. Once that is settled, I will feel so much better. I wanted to try to read the textbook for the neuroscience but with this damn headache, that is a no. I should have known I was going to get a migraine when I got brainfog while at Starbucks. I thought it was just because I was up so damn early. I didn’t even have to pee. I just woke up feeling pretty good. Now I feel like total shit. Of course, all I have had to drink today was coffee beverages. I am trying to drink more water but it is hard. Plain water is boring.

Day 3 migraine continues.

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Migraine continues. I have been in bed most of the day and I took a nap for a few hours. I still have a damn head pressure. If this continues tomorrow, I think I will go to the ED. I’ve never had a migraine last this long before.

I had a difficult night sleeping. I kept getting up because I was thirsty. I would have read some but my head was hurting me too much. I was listening to the game and the Snakes took the lead and then some. I turned it off only to learn later the Sox came back and won the game. Of course it happened the next inning when I turned it off. It was so hard to follow the game because my head hurts so much. I was just laying on my bed in the dark, listening to the game. I couldn’t really read on my phone so I just lay in the dark.

I made pasta salad for dinner. It has been the only thing I have eaten today. I had two cups of coffee to try and clear my head but it didn’t work. Coffee must be broken. I keep thinking about the dreams I had the other night. It was just creepy. I don’t think I will listen to the game tonight. I will just keep track of it on the app. It hurts too much to concentrate. Even as I am typing this it hurts. I hope sleep will take the headache away. I took some ibuprofen with some Excedrin. Sometimes that combo helps.

Migraine Friday

I slept a few hours and then was up a couple of hours. I finally got back to sleep maybe around 4ish am. Then I had dreams that gave me headaches. I woke up with one so bad I thought my head was going to explode. I couldn’t move it hurt so bad. I had a difficult time getting to sleep as my CRPS ankle flared up about twenty minutes after I laid down. I was in so much pain. It continued to today. I have managed to get around the house but going out wasn’t happening. I had my meeting with Mass Rehab. They are going to help me finish my degree. I need to give them some documents to help with financial stuff.

After the meeting, I completely ran out of gas and had to lay down. I had a headache and was just so tired. I rested but didn’t sleep. Damn phone kept going off, scaring the crap out of me. I swear hit my ceiling a few times. I kept going over my finances and things I need to do. It is a lot. Then I got anxiety and well, I couldn’t sleep after that. I got up feeling so awful. I made another cup of coffee and then some burgers as I hadn’t eaten anything. I felt a little better after eating but I so feel like I can go to sleep now. I need to take a shower. I managed to brush my teeth and shave my head before the meeting. I will probably feel a little better once I shower.

PT called today, finally. My doctor put the order wrong so I had to send a message for them to fix it. I called them and they aren’t booking until Sept. JFC. My sprain has been hurting every so often so I guess it is still healing. It doesn’t give me the constant every day pain I have been having.

I tried filling out a form for therapy that is west of Boston but I couldn’t do it so I called the intake line except they don’t do intakes over the phone. Why they are called intake I have no idea. Anyway because they are so west of me, I am not in their catchment area. They referred me to Cambridge. They don’t take my insurance and the copay will be higher so I am not calling them. I messaged my psychiatrist and am waiting to see what he says. I see him next week so it might be then that he responds. I knew it was going to be difficult finding a new therapist.

I just got an email from UMB financial aid that says my appeal has been approved for one semester. It contradicts an email I got last week saying my appeal was not successful. I don’t know or care, really. I am going to pay for the one class I am taking. I dropped one class as I couldn’t afford two. Damn assholes are playing with me and I don’t like it. I am going to study really hard this semester. I got to do this. And I know the course is going to be difficult. Just wish I didn’t get brain fog when I am tired. Physically going to campus always tires me out before I get to class. It is the same time as my class last semester and in the same building but a different classroom. I don’t know if there will be a lot of students or not. It is a 300 level class. I don’t know the professor. The department has changed.