Category: depression

I’m feeling meh. It’s hot in the house and I can only take so much of it so been in my room most of the day but haven’t had energy to do anything. I managed to wash my face and brush my teeth. I haven’t shaved my head yet. I took out some of the recycling but the heat got to me. I had ice cream for lunch. Someone at the last of my waffles and my piece of rum cake I took from the party. It wasn’t a good morning.

My pcp’s RN got in touch with me about my depression. She spoke with the team and I will meet with the social worker a few times until I have a long term therapist set up. I’ll be going to the office tomorrow to drop off my book and poster.

I didn’t sleep good last night. I woke up around 0030 and I stayed up till dawn. Allergies were killing me so I ended up taking benadryl for some relief and sleep. I am tired.

Family Sunday

Last night, I snoozed for a couple of hours and then woke up with a shit ton of energy around 1030pm. I was like, really?? You couldn’t give me energy before then?? I read a few chapters of Moby Dick. They were long chapters. I slept for a few hours and then woke up around 330. I don’t remember if I had to pee or if I just woke up. I was tossing and turning most of the night until maybe 7ish when I went back to sleep only to wake up to my med alarm at 8. I went back to sleep for a couple of hours and then got up when I had to pee. The house was cooler than it was yesterday but it was still hot.

Last night I took a shower before going to bed. I needed it and I knew the chances of me trying to take one in the morning were slim. I got up around 1030 and took my meds. I then had some coffee and some waffles. I had to get dressed by 1215 to leave the house. We were going to celebrate my aunt who turn 87 last week. We had a good time. And then afterwards we went to the beach for ice cream. It was a good day. I was tired after I ate. I am so full.

Amazon has been holding my damn books hostage for two weeks. I get an email yesterday saying that the books have been delayed shipping and won’t arrive until Monday. Then I get an email today saying they are on their way and should be here by 10pm. When I arrived home from my family event, the box was at my door. THEY FINALLY ARRIVED!!! I am so happy. Tomorrow I am going to call my pcp’s office to see if I can come by Tues and drop some off. If it isn’t too hot, I will go to the East Boston Library and see if I can donate a copy or two and see if I can schedule an event.

Sox are on at 7 tonight. I still haven’t done my meds for the week. I wanted to cool off some before I did them so am writing this blog. I have nothing planned for the week, though I am thinking of clearing the area around my desk so I can get to the printer and old dinosaur of a computer to remove it. Allergies are kicking my ass today. I just took another Allegra. Had enough with the sneezing my head off. JFC.

Saturday Blog 06072024

I am feeling pretty frustrated about a few things. One is my financial aid. They keep sending me emails saying there is missing information and then when I click on it, it says nothing is needed. I have sent numerous emails to the financial aid person in charge of my account and have not received a response. Monday billing starts. I am stressed out about it.

Then I get a notification about my books that it will be delayed. I have been waiting for nearly two weeks for this order. I’ve never had books take so long to be shipped before.

I apparently missed a good game last night. I ended up falling asleep while the game was in delay. I really was tired even though I was only up for a few hours. I was still recovering from Wed. I spent all day Thursday in bed. I didn’t eat anything.

I am wicked hot today. It is 90% humidity and only like 80 degrees. It is gross. I shaved and all I did was sweat. I had a cup of coffee and my biscuits. Someone has eaten my pasta salad. I am not happy about this. There is a little left. I might make some more, if someone didn’t make the pasta. I’m not really hungry right now but could use another cup of coffee.

Kept you like an oath

I had a bad dream about my mother and woke up earlier than I wanted to. In a way, that kind of worked out for me as I was able to have a cup of coffee before leaving the house. My sister commandeered the kitchen so I was only able to have one cup. She was so “nice” to me this morning by calling me lazy because I didn’t use soap to rinse out my mug. That is how my morning started.

I wanted to leave the house around 1030 but the bus was coming and there was no way I could be at the bus stop in 6 mins so I had to wait 40 mins for the next bus, which meant leaving the house around 1130. I got to Starbucks around 1215 as I had to stop at the library and pharmacy. I returned the book I borrowed. After I had my breakfast wrap, I started reading Principles of Psychology. It is a very thick book. It took me almost an hour to finish the first chapter, which was pretty long and some parts I didn’t quite understand. By the time I was finished, it was time for me to leave to go to the hospital for my appointment.

I think I do have another UTI as my UA showed signs. My results are back but I can’t access them as the server is having issues. The NP was really happy my bladder is back to normal functioning. She prescribed me estrogen cream for my UTI symptoms. It was ready before I left the office. I see her in a year as long as I don’t have any issues that I need her for.

I checked the price of the cream and it is out of my budget right now so I will have to get it my next pay period. After my appointment I just stayed at one section of the building which was close to the train station. I was waiting for my friend as we had plans for dinner. She was bringing her kids. I haven’t seen them in so long. It was a good outing. I miss them so much. Dinner was good. We went to our favorite Thai place and I got pad Thai and then drunken chicken for tomorrow.

I should have used the bathroom before leaving the restaurant and I didn’t. By the time I got to my stop on the train, I had to go and I just made it to the bathroom home. I had to use my sister’s bathroom because it was closest. OMG I am so glad that bathroom saved me from wet pants. I leaked a little but damn it, I had trouble getting my pants down. Damn button on my pants and belt, man WTF. My sprained foot is wicked sore and my sister has my bottle of ibuprofen. I took some Excedrin because it has aspirin in it. I should just have plain aspirin but Tylenol won’t hurt. I walked a lot today. My foot flared up soon as I left the library so I have been dealing with it all afternoon and evening.

I am listening to my playlist of new Taylor albums. 165 songs. I love it and I don’t think there is a song I don’t like. I honestly don’t know how she picks her songs for her concerts. I would have a hard time choosing.