Category: depression

Post wedding

My day started earlier than I wanted to because my sister turned on the TV in the hotel room. It woke me up with its nonsense. I thought she was watching the Hallmark channel as the show was about love and relationships but there were swears in there and talk about sexual stuff. I think it was on HBO Max or something. Anyways, I got up and took my meds and then did my Italian for the day. We were all going to go out for breakfast. I thought that was nice. It was so warm out.

The wedding was awesome. It was a long day but it was so much fun. And a great deal of pictures were taken. I cried a few times. It was emotional. My baby is now married. The DJ played love Story and I sang and danced. It was so much fun.

I came home and did some schoolwork and then had to take a nap. Then my brother in law called me for dinner. Oops. I slept a little longer than I intended. I still am so tired. I have a slight headache. I am trying to stay up for a little longer to take notes from last class. There were a lot of notes. This week there is a discussion and the topic is chronic pain hurts the brain. My favorite topic. I can’t wait to read the article.

Tomorrow I have class. I have a somewhat busy week. I hope the box for the holter monitor comes so I can return it. I was hoping I would have come the weekend but it didn’t. There was supposed to be a return label in the box but there wasn’t. Now I just have to wait. Wed I have an appointment with the NP in neuro. Hope she can help me with these headaches. I am thankful I didn’t get one during the wedding. I made sure I drank a lot of water, even though it tasted terrible. The water at the bar was much better than the water at the table. I picked out my classes for next semester. They don’t have Italian MWF so I picked it online. I hope it isn’t going to be intense as my other online class was. That class was a joke.

I had to get up early today because we had rehearsal for the wedding. I managed to have a little something for breakfast and a cup of coffee. I didn’t have time for two.

It was a nice a day,  much warmer than it was when I look at the Temps the beginning of the week. Tomorrow is supposed to be in the 70s which is nice. I’ll probably be sweating in my suit. The venue is gorgeous and outside. Of course I am the first person in the procession line with my nephew. He couldn’t be there today as he had to work. After we practiced a few times, we left to the restaurant for lunch. It was good food. I am still full. I was feeling pretty tired and needed a nap. My sister and aunt both said it was because I am not “used” to being out. It’s bullshit. It’s because I have depression and chronic illness that I am tired. I was so pissed off. Didn’t help that I had the beginning of another fucking headache cooking. We went to the hotel after the restaurant. Soon as we settled into the room I changed. The shoes were hurting my feet. I rested for a bit. I tried to snooze but I couldn’t. I need to study. I brought my textbook with me but forgot my library book. Oh well.

Tomorrow my baby is getting married. I can’t believe it. She is all grown up now. I don’t know how this happened. One minute she was this tiny little girl and now she is getting married. I wish her the best.

Didn’t sleep got another headache

I woke up around midnight because I had to pee and then I got a brutal headache. It went on for about an hour. I wasn’t going to take anything for it but I had to. I took 800mg of ibuprofen. I tried to sleep but I couldn’t. The pain was so intense. I was up for a few hours. I think I fell back to sleep around 5. I still woke up with a minor headache. I didn’t want to get up. I stayed in bed after my med alarm went off. I took my meds and snoozed. I woke up and figured I try to get up. It was around 1230. I had my coffee. I haven’t eaten yet but I brushed my teeth, shaved and showered. I got my meds from the pharmacy delivered. I didn’t get a 3 month supply of Ajovy. That sucks. I paid $25 for one injection instead of three.

I need to do a few things today. I need to do my meds for the weekend. Pack a bag. Iron my shirt before my sister kills me. Make sure I have my migraine and headache meds and any PRN meds, too. Wedding is Sunday. I am so excited. Two days and my oldest niece is going to be married. I wish my mother could be here to celebrate with us.

I am feeling so tired after the shower. I just want to nap but I got stuff to do. I still need to make something to eat. I bought burgers yesterday and plan on making one. I need to freeze the rest as they will go bad as I won’t be here the weekend. I also bought steak but could finish it last night. I think it will be ok. It was a huge piece. I wish my head wasn’t hurting so I could do stuff without being so sluggish. I just made an executive decision. Gorditas. I don’t feel like cooking. I got such a damn headache it is going to take all I have just to get my meds all square away and pack clothes and accessories. I am going to need my razor because Sunday I will need to shave my head again. I am growing my beard out. I just hope it looks somewhat even by Sunday.

I know places

I woke up early and ordered breakfast. It was huge and delicious. I had a cup of coffee and then I went to Starbucks to work on my presentation. I still need to work on my slides. I returned my library book and got the second book in the series. I just hope I can read my handwriting. I went home afterwards as my meds were not going to be ready. My damn migraine med is out of stock after I was told it was going to be ready after 12. I am pissed about this. I am supposed to take my dose tomorrow but now it doesn’t seem like that is going to happen. Might happen Friday. I will call tomorrow and see when it will come in. My gaba has been called in and is all set. I will pick that up either before or after class. Depends if how early I leave tomorrow. I need to buy a bottle of water as I am out.

I spent the last few hours just listening to music and on social media. I tried taking a nap but couldn’t really rest. Every time I laid down my damn phone would go off with a message. I’ve had more email come through my phone the past few days than anything.

I cannot wait till I can take off this Holter monitor. It is so damn itchy. It’s driving me crazy. I know I had a couple of events today as I came up the stairs I was kind of winded when I came home. I didn’t activate the button because it is my normal. I don’t know how long it will take to get results. I don’t know if the hospital does it or the company does it.

I have to give the presentation tomorrow and I am wicked nervous about it. It has been a while since I had to present in front of a class. I hope I do ok and don’t fumble over words. I sent a message to the professor but she didn’t respond. It might have been because I forgot to put the class in the subject line. Shit, that reminds me, I was supposed to read chapter 4 and I never did. Omg I have no idea where time went. One minute it was 3pm and the next it was 8pm. I spend too much time on social media. I got to work on powerpoint slides and I hope I can post in them. It’s been a long time since I worked in powerpoint.