Category: depression

It’s Monday again

I had therapy today and about an hour or so after we ended session, I sent a message saying I quit. It just isn’t worth it to me anymore. I barely talked. I had no idea what to talk about. I am done with her. If she responds, I am going to ask for another therapist. She just isn’t right for me.

I have been dealing with allergies most of the day. I have a knot of phlegm at the back of my throat that won’t go down and can’t cough up. I keep coughing and my nose is running. No matter how many times I blow my nose, I am still congested. I fucking hate this season and wish it was fall already. (I would love to skip summer all together).

I started clearing my bed off. I started with one side and will do the other side tomorrow. I need to go to the grocery store. I need more half and half and some turkey breast. I’d love a turkey sandwich. I am still feeling low. I have no energy. I made a beef pot pie for lunch. I had chocolate pie for breakfast. It was so yummy. I only had one cup of coffee. I brushed my teeth but I haven’t shaved my head yet. I plan on doing that soon. I might shower, too. I have had back cramps so am waiting for them to calm down before doing what I need to do.

A friend had posted on Facebook a recipe with cabbage and carrots. I am thinking of making it but I need to know if they sell cabbage already shredded. I am not good at shredding stuff, unless I use a food processor. But I did that one time for a chicken recipe and it obliterated the chicken to dust so I don’t want to do that again.

I somehow managed to aggravate a stomach muscle. It cramped in a big way. Fucking hate this. I am going to shave my head before I get too lazy. Until tomorrow folks.

I was lazy all day. I mostly stayed in bed. I had a couple cups of coffee and some pie. I just feel wicked tired all the time. I don’t know if it’s the infection or allergies or combination of the two.

I wanted to clear some section of my room but I still haven’t brushed my teeth or shaved my head. I need a shower but don’t think it is happening. I did my meds for the week.

It’s supposed to get hot this week. If I can clear the area where my AC is, I’ll have my brother in law put it in. Wish I knew why I feel so run down. It is cool today. On and off periods of rain. Just a good day to stay under the covers.

Allergies and a headache

I was up for a few hours last night. I went pee and then finally fell asleep probably around 5ish. I had the weirdest dreams. I woke up with a headache and my allergies were already flaring as my nose was running. I really have no plans today but am going to try and do some small part to clean my room. It has gotten out of control. I have bags of recycling that need to be brought down. I also need to do something with my clothes.

I brought out the trash and a bag of recycling. I had to walk around the house as the contractors had put fresh cement on the stairs leading to the driveway. I didn’t want to step on it so went around. As I was passing the front yard, I saw a black dove. I wish I had my phone on me but I left it in my room. It was so pretty.

My friend is traveling so I probably won’t get an adjusted picture of the pdf that I need for my book. I will get it soon though. I will be happy when this is done. It has been one stressful event.

Despite sleeping well, I am still fucking tired. The allergies are making feel like shit. I still feel ill from the UTI. I took an antibiotic at like 4am to start it off. I keep on having bladder pain so I have been taking the pyridium. It sucks. I hate having a UTI.

I looked up stuff to get my real ID as next year you will definitely need it to travel. Not like I will be traveling but it will be good to have. I need to get my passport done. I just need to get a couple of things copied and a photo done. I made an appointment for the ID. I just hope the stupid T is running that day and I don’t need to take a shuttle.

I just had something to eat. I made Lipton chicken noodle soup and had cheese and crackers. It felt good to have something warm. I still feel crummy and I am contemplating taking a Benadryl soon. Allergies are off so bad. For some reason, my Sox calendar isn’t loading. Last day I have is Monday. They have a game tonight at 8. They are in MO playing the Cardinals. I hope they fucking win. They had a horrible series against the Rays. That is if I am still awake by then.