Category: depression

I got my grades for anthro today, the last day for P/F/W. I scored a 41 on both exams. I withdrew. I hated to do it but I can’t afford an F. I reluctantly went to my psych class and glad I did as we had an exam. I didn’t study at all but I think I did ok. I missed class Tues so I had no idea there was an exam. I don’t look at the syllabus. Guess I should.

I am back in Starbucks after the exam. I wanted a coffee and Chipotle. I ordered a different beef and it is wicked salty. I don’t like it at all. I also wanted just a vanilla cold brew and ended up with hazelnut because I didn’t look at what I ordered previously. Oops. It is wicked sweet.

So now I just have my psych class to focus on. I don’t have to read the book on sex workers in Paraguay. Now I can read Norse Mythology for fun and work on my book on weekends. I am tired so don’t think I’ll be doing anything tonight. Sox had a day game so my night is free. They lost.

It is raining. I took off my sweatshirt but will have to put it back on as it’s chilly. I’m going home soon. Hoping this coffee doesn’t put me asleep.

Grumpy fucking mood today

I woke up to my med alarm and then used the bathroom. I took my meds and then went back to sleep. Big mistake. I am now in a rotten mood. Construction guys are loud and noisy. One of the men keeps yelling at someone to work. I hate the fucking noise early in the morning when I haven’t had coffee yet. I had two cups and I still just want to sleep. I am going to read chapter 9 today, all of it. I don’t know when though as I keep procrastinating.

My allergies are making me so miserable. I got a pollen alert this morning saying it is high again today. Not as high as it was yesterday though. My eyes are watery and I keep sneezing. It is nice outside. If I put on my sneakers to go to the pharmacy, it should be a nice walk. I am going to keep my shorts on. I am not going to get dressed. I made a shepard’s pie for lunch. I like making it better than frozen kind. I should buy the stuff for it. I usually use instant mashed potatoes for the top as it is easier. Last time I made it, my mother had some. She liked it.

I saved my book as a txt document. I wanted to get the stupid format off so I can move things around without adding shit. I hate formatting things. I can never do it right. My editor wrote back after I had a few questions. I think I am going to add dates to the blogs I put in the book and italicize them so they know it is old material.

My sister just sent pics of the new patio…the noise that is making me grumpy looks pretty. I love the stone color. I think it is done and next would be to finish the porches and siding on the house. I don’t know when that will happen. Seems these guys like to work one day and take off for two weeks. Granted weather hasn’t helped matters. I just want the work done so I can sit outside now that the weather is getting nicer and I can be topless.

Marathon Monday 2024

Today is the Boston Marathon. My friend from my hometown is running his 26^th consecutive marathon. I haven’t seen him post his results yet. He should be done by now. I love seeing him run. It is also the day we remember the victims of the Boston Marathon bombing from 2013. Hope they continue to rest in peace.

I canceled my therapy appointment. I didn’t feel like going and there was nothing I wanted to talk about. I texted her for a time next week as the rest of my week is pretty busy but she hasn’t texted me back yet. There is a high pollen count today and I want to open the window in my room but I don’t want to sneeze my head off. I already have been sneezing since early this morning. I had a hard time getting to sleep last night. I kept feeling hot and cold. Today is in the 70s and is so nice out. I took a shower at my sister’s and I forgot what water pressure felt like. My shower is just a trickle of water compared to hers. It was a nice shower. I felt weak and thought my foot would act up but it didn’t. My back did though. It still is cramping up. I sweat a lot afterwards and had to put on a shirt as I was just dripping. I am wearing my new PJs but they are much too warm for this weather. I don’t think I will sleep with them on. I might change to shorts.

I wanted to go to the pharmacy to get my meds but I never did. I will tomorrow after class. Maybe they will have my favorite Ben and Jerry’s ice cream. I managed to finish chapter 8 and will start chapter 9 after this blog. I finished the read of my book edits. I have to organize the document a bit. I won’t be able to work on it until Saturday. I have given myself that day to work on my book and the rest of the time to focus on school reading. My psych professor got back to me about the final. It is going to be cumulative. I hate that.

I haven’t eaten a meal today. I have been wanting to eat one of my microwave dinners but the freezer has been blocked by the vanity my brother in law is working on. I don’t want to order food as I don’t really know what I want to eat. My back is still cramping from the shower. I have been trying to drink fluids but it has been a challenge. I have had three cups of coffee today and that really has been my only fluid intake so far. Some days I can drink without a problem and other days, it is really hard.