Category: depression

Wasted fucking day

I woke up in the middle of the night to pee but was able to sort of get back to sleep. My sister was fucking loud when she left for work so I woke up early to pee again. I didn’t want to get up because I was nervous about my appt. I slept for a bit but still got up around 11. I took my meds and I had a shitload of messages. My econ prof went nuts. I had so many notifications some of which we weren’t on yet. I missed the message from my psych prof. For some reason, I get email from my school address sent to my private email and I found it in the delete folder. I thought it was weird I didn’t get a notification but it was the first message after all the stupid econ ones.

I had coffee and then made a sandwich. I played with the dog and took some pictures of her as she was so damn cute. Then I got ready. I was early and waited a half hour for the bus. I got to the hospital at 2 and to the shuttle depot by 215. The shuttle I was to take wasn’t there. I waited. And waited. And waited. I called transportation and the shuttle was delayed. It was nearly a half hour before my appt. There was no way I was going to go across town in a half hour. And I missed my appt. It was nearly 4pm by the time I got to the other hospital area in Boston. I was tired and hungry. I was thankful I bought a water bottle before I got on the train. I took an alternate route home and didn’t get home till 530. I was starving. I had a bowl of cereal. It was my neighbor’s birthday so I went downstairs before going to my room. I knew if I went to my room, I wasn’t going out again. I had fun but I was wicked tired and pissed off that I spent an afternoon stuck.

I just came home now and took my night meds. I have a headache. I won’t be reading Econ tonight. I played with the pup for a bit. She was laying down. The only good news is that I started the book for my econ book assignment and due to the prof restructuring grades, I am at a 47 instead a 27. I am still failing. I am hoping the book part brings my grade up. Because if it doesn’t, I am screwed.

Daaaa Yankees Lose!!!!

I was so happy the Skankees lost last night. They choked again. HAHA. Now I will be rooting for the Jays to win the AL.

I got up later than I wanted to but I still was able to get done what I needed to. I have done mostly everything except start my Econ chapter. I have been researching an article for my paper but I am not getting anywhere with it. I might have email the professor and  get her help with it.

Tomorrow I have my bottom surgery consult. I answered the pre-registration questions. I am nervous. I still don’t know what way I am going to go, red or orange line. I have to take a shuttle to the hospital so I have to leave plenty of time. I figure if I leave before 2 I should be there by 3 and maybe be able to go to Starbucks for a coffee. There was one by the hospitals the last time I was there. I hope it is still there. I don’t think I saw it on the list of closures.

I got my new glasses last night. Now I can read on the laptop without straining my neck. Everything is clear. It is cold today. Temps will be the same tomorrow. I love it because I can wear my hoodies.

I am feeling kind of depressed lately. I just have so much to do it is stressing me out. I haven’t read my psych or Econ all week. I got a quiz due Mon and it is 230 questions. Prof should just call it a damn test with that many questions. I am going to be referring to my book a lot.