Category: depression

I woke up between 4 and 5 and couldn’t get back to sleep. I stayed up and read my textbook. Chapter is so frigging long. I’m still not finished after an hour or so reading. I took my meds around 630. I waited till my sister left for work so I could make something to eat. I was hungry. I made cheesy eggs. I forgot to bring down my coffee so I only had one cup. Then I went up to my room for my appt.

My neuro said her migraine patients have all had difficulty this summer because of the heat. I told her all week I’ve had a headache. She said it was OK to take Tylenol a few days in a row. I had a huge headache today, probably left over from the migraine last night. She wasn’t all that concerned with the shaking but if it becomes bothersome for me we can lower the depakote dose. Otherwise we are sticking with the way the meds are right now. I am to see the NP in Nov and see her again probably in the spring. She will be on maternity leave from Sept to Jan I think she said. Hopefully i won’t have any problems between now and then.

There has been construction going on all morning and the noise is driving me crazy. It is also scaring the puppy at times. I am watching her again. She has been good today, so far. Though she mostly has been staying in her crate. She has been outside to poop but hasn’t peed yet. I don’t think she has been drinking. I want a nap so bad. My head is killing me, which the noise is only aggravating me more. I can’t wait till 3 or 4pm when the workers leave. Will be a quiet weekend as they don’t work.

I’m going to take a shower soon. Still haven’t decided if I am going to shave or not. The new drug is causing constipation and the senna isn’t working. Think I am gonna have to take some miralax. I am down another 2 lbs. I rather lose weight slow than fast.

Ordinary

I am so in love with the song Ordinary by Alex Warren. I have been playing it on repeat since I bought it like two weeks ago. I have been alternating it with Taylor music and Mary Chapin Carpenter. I love MCC’s new album. I am going to take a financial risk by getting tickets to her show when I get paid next. I am hoping the money that I will get from college will be refunded to me by then so it will even out. I bought my books before I got the advance so I am hoping to get that money back.

I have been having a headache for most of the day. I took Tylenol last night so I don’t want to take another dose. I see my neuro tomorrow morning. I hope I can get up early for it and have at least one cup of coffee before the appt. I think the changes in pressure is the reason I have had a headache all week.

I managed to brush my teeth when I got up but can’t decide if I want to shave or not. My goatee is going strong and the beard is filling in. I just need to trim the goatee a bit on my chin. Hair is not filling in quite evenly. I think I need to exfoliate the area to get the hairs to come out. I am just tired and can’t get myself to do it.

My urine culture came back with loaded bacteria but not a particular strain. So I am just going to continue to take the antibiotic for the next few days. I finish it Sunday. Today has been the first time in nearly a week that I haven’t had symptoms. I still have some urgency when I have to go though. I plan on taking a shower tomorrow. Maybe I can groom downstairs some and use my new hair remover cream. I’ve been wanting to see how it is.

The bottom surgery surgeon’s office called today. They had to reschedule the appt. Thankfully it was two days later around the same time. I was worried it might be another month or so before being seen. I have been in an indecisive mood today. I don’t know what to do with myself. I want to read my psych textbook but I need to clean off my bed. I also need to find my damn PJ shorts as they have disappeared. I think they are in with my niece’s clothes. Tomorrow I have my third dose of the weight loss drug which means I get to weigh myself. I will do that after my appt with my neuro. I have been eating less this week. Unfortunately, my coffee intake has taken a hit because after my first cup, my stomach gets upset or I lose the desire for a second cup. I need the second cup of coffee or the chances of me going back to sleep are increased. I had two cups today and I was contemplating a third but it was after 4pm so I didn’t make it. Sox are playing tonight. I plan on listening to the game. They are playing the skankees.

Went out finally

I finally went out and picked up my meds. I also went and dropped off a sample of my urine to check for infection. It looks like I may have another UTI. I took some pyridium because it hurts when I pee and I have such urgency. My allergies are out of control today. I have been sneezing and congested all day.

I came home later than I planned but I had to wait for the bus. I haven’t eaten supper yet. I want rice. I should have bought a rice bowl while I was at the pharmacy but forgot. I got Gatorade at Walgreens as it was on sale. A new flavor that is pretty good.

I feel like shit and am really tired. I slept through the night again. I only woke up around 6 to pee. I tried going back to sleep but fucking construction started around 630 or so. I was pissed. I somehow managed to go back to sleep before my alarm woke me up. I had a weird dream but I don’t remember it. It gave me a headache and I didn’t want to get up. I had just one cup of coffee as it upset my stomach. I didn’t eat anything until I got to Starbucks. I had their egg bite things with potato.

For some reason, I thought today was Wed. I guess falling back to sleep messed up my days of the week. I hope my pcp gets back to me tomorrow about my urine tests. I am not feeling well right now and got the chills. I hope this doesn’t mean a fever is coming. It’s cool in my room but not cold. The temps are still in the high 60s. It was a very nice day today, very fall like. I can’t wait for hoodie season.