Category: depression

Saturday Blog 28062025

Today is my nephew’s birthday but he wasn’t feeling good so we canceled the dinner for him. I was bummed. I had a difficult time sleeping last night. My room was too hot so I couldn’t get comfortable. I kept putting the sheet on and taking it off. It was like 4am and then I got some energy. I wanted to stay up but my allergies were killing me. I took a Benadryl because it was too close to the time I would have taken my allegra. I felt sleepy in like an hour and a half. I only took 25 mg because I didn’t want to be groggy. I ended up feeling like shit when I woke up anyway. I had to take a shower but with the canceled dinner, I didn’t have to rush to do it.

My allergies are still terrible and my sinuses hurt. I just took some ibuprofen as I am getting a headache. I had shut off the AC but now need to turn it back on. I am so hot. It’s not even that warm out but it’s raining. I think the barometric pressure is causing the sinus issues. I want to go back to sleep.

Cooler Friday

The temps are much cooler today than they have been. I went to the Square today to pick up my meds and to go to Starbucks for a coffee and something to eat. I then waited for the bus. When I got on the bus, I took a seat and then a lady complained as she wanted it. I don’t understand why she complained as she had a seat. The bus wasn’t that full. So stupid.

My legs felt like crap on the way home. I had to stop at the bench for a bit before going down the street that turns into a mile before my house. It’s a short street but I swear it feels like a mile when walking and all you want to do is go home. There was mail at the house so I took it in. My sister has a cold so I am staying away from her and washing my hands more. I need to take a shower between now and tomorrow as tomorrow is my nephew’s birthday and we are going out. I haven’t showered all week so I stink. I was going to take one tonight but I feel too tired.

I had leftover Chinese rice for supper. While I was eating, my hands started shaking. My legs shook the other day. I thought it was because they were weak and I was straining them. I messaged my psychiatrist to see what he thinks. Next would be my neuro if it isn’t med related. I don’t see her till Aug and it is virtual so would probably need to see the NP if this is anything to be concerned about.

I kept on having weird dreams last night. I used the bathroom around 630 and managed to go back to sleep until my med alarm went off. Then my phone went off with different notifications so I couldn’t go back to sleep. I got up when the study survey came in. I had two cups of coffee but I didn’t eat anything. I need to buy my biscuits. I miss having them. My allergies are off the wall today. I sneezed so much while I was out. My sister is sick so I am staying the fuck away from her. She has stayed mostly in her room.

I am paying attention to the game so I can’t sleep just yet. My cousin and I are texting about the game. One of the newer pitchers that I like is pitching but he is losing. The Sox have done squat so far. It’s the 6^th inning. Time is running out to score runs.

Between my game and the surveys for the study I am in, I had a hard time getting to sleep last night. Then when I finally decided to turn in, my allergies went haywire. I was sneezing my head off and my eyes were watering. I had to take a benadryl. I would have taken an Allegra but I would take it in a few hours as it was 3am.

Today my cousin is having her lumpectomy. Then I found out my aunt broke her hip and she had surgery last night. I am worried. I was watching the puppy and she wanted nothing to do with me. Every time I got near her she pulled away or hid. She stayed under the bed until her father came home. I kept checking on her to make sure she was OK. She didn’t drink or eat anything. I would have taken her for a walk if she let me. It is much cooler today than it has been all week. I hope the temp stays this way.

I’m feeling frustrated. Bitch sister just came home and bitched. Also called me spoiled by my mother. My mother did not spoil me by any means so I don’t know what she is talking about. Makes me so mad. I finished my drink and left everything the way it was. Fuck her.

I got to go to the Square tomorrow and get my meds. I woke up too late to go today.