Category: depression

Heat wave 2025

My niece started a job today so rather than listen to the dog bark all day in the crate, I took her out. She stayed in her bedroom under the bed all day sleeping. I felt bad because she wasn’t drinking. I was trying to give her ice cubes because it was so hot in that room but she wouldn’t take them.

Last night, I broke out in a rash on my wrist from the fitbit. I thought it would be gone in the morning but it wasn’t. I have it on my other wrist and it is so weird to me. I am not used to it. I have been feeling down most of the day. I don’t do well in hot weather. It hit over 100 degrees today. I didn’t go out. I ordered my groceries to be delivered. They didn’t have my Marie Calendar’s country fried chicken or my burgers. I did get burgers but they were humungous. I had to cut them in half as they were way too thick. They didn’t taste good either. I needed to season them. They were quite plain, more plain than I expected. I finally got my Ben and Jerry’s ice cream. I only did a small shopping. It still came out to be like 80 bucks. I am hoping next week I can do the bigger shopping and get the things I need.

I confirmed my appt with the bottom surgeon. I also was finally able to get a hold of my therapist and make an appt with her. Unfortunately, it isn’t for two weeks. I am not happy about this. She is booked and then she is off next week. Grrrr. I sent her an email. I hope she doesn’t lose it.

It was fun taking care of the puppy today. I just wish it was cooler so we could have possibly gone for a walk or outside in the yard for a bit. But it was too hot. She wasn’t having none of the heat but didn’t want to be in the cooler room with the AC and fan for some reason. I tried to get her in my room but she wouldn’t come. Funny when she isn’t supposed to go, she goes but when I called her, she wouldn’t. silly dog.

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I had a toothache after eating some ice cream and it kept me up. I couldn’t sleep. I finally took some ibuprofen and it calms it down but I was still up. I didn’t fall asleep until after 6am. I don’t know what time I got up. I didn’t have enough half and half for two coffees. I was upset. I took some half and half from my sister downstairs. It is so damn hot in the house. I managed to shave and shower. I then rested for a bit.

I sat in the kitchen and sweated my ass off as I drank my coffee. I had something to eat and decided I wanted pasta salad so made some pasta. I have it cooling off. The puppy just took a big dump in the kitchen and it reeks so I left for my room. I am cooling off as I listen to my country playlist. I feel really bad for some reason. I fear that all this sitting around is going to be detrimental to my health. It’s too hot in the house to walk around and way too hot to go for a walk outside. Tomorrow I need to pick up my meds. It’s going to be 100 degrees. I am going to turn into a raisin.

For the first time since being home, I have thought about ending it again. I didn’t have urges to do so but I thought about it. The heat drives me crazy. I want to escape from it. I hate that I have to stay in my room in order to stay cool. Not looking forward to going out tomorrow but I need to get my meds and do some grocery shopping. One of my meds is currently out of stock. Hope it comes in but I can hold off a day. It’s my migraine med. This week will be two shots, T and migraine med. Fun. The good news is that I can order my groceries and then pick them up. I don’t have to go around the store to get the items I need. That will save some spoons.