Category: depression

Wicked hot day

Today reached 86 degrees F. The puppy was so hot she hasn’t been eating and has stayed mostly under my niece’s bed. I finally was able to turn on my AC. I went grocery shopping and bought a few things. I forgot to buy bread and tuna fish. But I got turkey breast and some sub rolls for it. I bought bacon but I don’t have bread to make a sandwich.

I got a confusing email this morning as it said that my intake for tomorrow morning was canceled and I was placed on a wait list. Then around the time my cousin came to pick me up for grocery shopping, I got a call and confirmed the appt for tomorrow morning and it is virtual. I am glad. I still don’t have appts for my therapist. I do have an appt for my psychiatrist on Tues. I hope that I can keep it.

I managed to brush my teeth and trim my beard. I wanted to shave my head but I lost energy after shopping. I need to shower. What was weird is that while I was in the hospital, I didn’t get back spasms and worn out like I do at home. I don’t know why. There was a shower chair in the shower so I could sit to wash up. Maybe that is what I need to do at home after washing my hair. I bought a good body wash that I really like. It smells so good. I finally was able to cut my nails last night when I came home. That was the first thing I did when I was in my room.aWw

I had a good sleep but after like 330am I kept waking up to pee despite not drinking anything. I don’t know why I don’t seem to pee during the damn day. Aggravates me. I got up around 8 when my med alarm went off. I took my meds. I was slow to do things though because I didn’t have half and half to make my coffee. There was flavored creamer but I don’t like it because it leaves an aftertaste. I just had one cup of coffee before my room got to nearly 80 degrees. After grocery shopping, I moved some things so I could access my AC. I had to tuck the curtain in multiple times as it kept falling.

I did my SAP thing today. I hope this means I will get financial aid for the fall. I have been so anxious about this for months. I hope I find out soon. The anxiety is killing me.

Discharged

I got home today. I was not happy when I walked in my room as the packages I ordered were thrown on my bed and my ceiling fan was turned off. Tomorrow I will tackle straightening it out. I need to move some stuff so I can get to my window to access the AC. It’s 81 degrees today but with the fan it is cool as it isn’t muggy.

I woke up with a damn alarm going off on the unit. I had got up around 330 to pee and had a difficult time getting back to sleep. I was dozing in the day room around six so went back to bed and slept until that damn alarm went off. Scared the shit out of me. When I had team they said they wanted to keep me another day because partial hospital wasn’t set up. But it got set up around 4 and I was discharged shortly afterwards. I was grateful because I missed my puppy so much. She was eating dinner when I went downstairs and she came right to me and didn’t go back to her food. Then she started chasing her tail. It was so funny.

I am feeling really tired. I had wanted to shower but I never got a chance. I will tomorrow. I need to shave. I know I will get up early as I have the past few days. I have since being in the hospital. Today things were late but I am so glad I am home.