Category: depression

Day at the art museum

I woke up really tired though I slept fairly well. I had a date with my niece to go to the Harvard art museum. There was an exhibit of Edvard Munch’s work that I wanted to see. It was pretty cool. There was one piece where he had artwork on a piece of stone. I thought that was very interesting. There also was an old camera. It was pretty huge by today’s standards. I went to Starbucks after because I needed a latte. There was a long line so I had to wait.

I still have to do my meds for the week. I don’t know if I am going to take the migraine supplement because I have had a lot of headaches this past week as well as two migraines. But the directions say it could take up to 90 days to be effective so I am not sure. I am only going on the third week.

I plan on reading after I do my meds. I need to try and get to chapter 20 today. I will read more tomorrow, too. Goal is to try and finish by Tues. We have the second paper due next week. I am hoping to do better now that I know what he is expecting. I sent my Italian professor a message asking what my grade was. He was vague and didn’t give me an answer. He said that as long as I continue to try and keep up with the assignments and homework, I should pass the class. I am worried that the final oral exam is going to be toast and I won’t do well on it.

Tomorrow I have a phone chat with my DMH worker. I have a full week of stuff every day this week. I am going to be so tired come Saturday. Sunday is Easter so I will need to get my school work done before dinner. I need to try and do the extra credit for Eng this week.

Early start to the day

I woke up at 3am and couldn’t get back to sleep. I had about five hours of sleep. I guess that was all I needed. I tried reading for an hour or so but I was awake. And hungry. I ordered McD’s sausage burritos. I had a relatively quiet time until the bitch came down to make her coffee before leaving for work. She was instructing me on doing things while she was gone. I ignored her. She ended up loading the dishwasher and running it before she left. I had another cup of coffee in silence when she left.

I tried taking a nap but I couldn’t. Allergies were bad today as I kept clearing my throat or gagging on post nasal drip. I used the flonase and my allergy pill. But there is high pollen and that kills me. I am surprised the pollen count is high as the temps are still chilly. I needed to shower and go to pick up my meds. I ended up showering and was in too much pain afterwards to go out.

In the afternoon, I did my Italian work. Or at least started it. It is much easier this week to know the verbs. I did nine pages online and it took me nearly two hours. I had to take a break and eat something as I was getting a migraine. This is the second migraine this week. I’ve had headaches for three straight days. The bitch came home and started yelling. I had made dinner. My niece had ordered McD’s too so there was a pile of recycling to go out and she (bitch) freaked the fuck out. Both my niece and my sister were yelling back at each other. I just kept on doing what I was doing and staying out of it even though the bitch was including me in the argument. I am so sick of her shit.

I made a lemon blueberry cake. The blueberries sunk to the bottom so there is like a fruit bottom. It was delicious. I had to have a piece as it was the first time I made it with soda. It was really moist. I will definitely make it again and next time buy frosting for it.

I got a post migraine headache and I am wicked tired. I just took my night meds. I have been playing my game most of the day as well as keeping abreast of the news. The dumpster fire keeps burning. Measles cases still rising and the idiot Kennedy is promoting vitamin A which is leading to liver damage in kids. It’s just a fucking mess. I don’t think we can recover any time soon from this level of stupidity. And if the GOP have their way, I won’t be able to vote next election because I don’t have a passport. So fucking stupid. I just want to scream Hello, wake the fuck up you morons.