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School work and stuff

I had a difficult night sleeping due to reflux. My stomach was on fire until I took my reflux pill. Mylanta wasn’t cutting it and I took two doses. I still haven’t moved my bowels. I took Miralax yesterday and still nothing. I thought I might go last night but nothing. I will take another dose of Miralax in the morning. I was finally able to schedule my Covid shot. I thought I scheduled it in the morning, but it is the afternoon so I changed it. I know I will be too tired to go.

I finally was able to do my psych discussion thing. I nearly panicked when I didn’t see more module stuff today then remembered she posts it on Tuesdays. Econ had already posted stuff for the week. I just have the two quizzes and chap 3 to read. I actually need to read chap 2, which I will do on Wed. I finished chap 1 today. It took me a long time to get to it but it only took me like 15 mins to finish. I won’t learn from this.

I didn’t want to meet my DMH worker today so canceled. I was tired and just couldn’t get going today. I didn’t know if she was in the office or at home. We just texted each other. Tomorrow I have an appt with my psychiatrist. It should be a short appt as there is nothing really new to update him on other than my new therapist, which I still don’t have a telephone number for. I will get it this week when I see her. I really like that my therapist isn’t apart of the hospital system where I get my regular care is. I hated that everyone on my team had access to my therapist’s notes. It felt violating.

I might have to see my pcp soon if my CRPS pain doesn’t quiet down. It has been a month now that it has been hurting me every single night. It’s always a different pain. But it is usually either nerve or bone pain that I experience. It is more annoying than anything. Like right now my foot is tingling. It doesn’t help that sometimes I get cramps in my foot that are so damn painful. Sometimes when I put my other foot on top of it will set off the cramps. There is like a spot that just gets annoyed.

Thomas Rhett’s Notice has been running through my head all day. I am listening to his album now. I have all but one of his albums. I have to go through his list and find out which one I am missing. I love his music. He is having another baby. This makes child number 5! He is so blessed. He has four girls right now. Maybe this one will be a boy. We’ll find out soon.

Clusterfuck of a day

I set my alarm for 0730 because my delivery order was to come between 8 and 11. I got a message around 10 saying there was a delay and that I should check the app to see when my delivery would arrive. They said it would arrive between 1055 and 1110. It was already past that so I knew it wasn’t going to happen. I got a $5 credit. Then when the delivery came, I didn’t get what I ordered and I was not happy about it. I complained and got the order refunded. So now I got around $25 in credit to use next time I order. I won’t be ordering my drinks again on that app.

My sister made a corn salsa and I wanted to have some today but she ate the chips I bought. I was not fucking happy. It’s been raining all day and my allergies have been brutal. I keep having to clear my throat from post nasal drip. I will have to take another Allegra tonight. I finally showered and it exhausted me. I literally was in the shower and wanted to cry because I didn’t have the damn energy to dry myself off. I felt so weak. I didn’t even have the shower water temp that hot as it still is kind of warm out. It’s cool today but nothing I need to wear heavy clothes about. I like it when it’s cool. Anyways, I managed to dry myself. I was glad I had brushed my teeth before I showered because there was no way I was going to brush afterwards. I also trimmed my beard and did my eyebrows. They were getting a bit hairy.

I just wanted to nap. I went to have something to eat and all that I had was my pizza I bought the other day. I forced myself to have toast with butter with my coffee. I didn’t really eat yesterday and I was hungry before I went to sleep. I drank an Ensure because I didn’t want to eat something. I actually didn’t want to go downstairs. Didn’t matter though because I had fricken heartburn all night long. My esophagus felt like it was on fire and I had reflux really bad. I want to lose weight so bad but I don’t know if aggravating my GERD is a good idea. I will message my pcp tomorrow about it. I can deal with the gastritis pains but reflux is hard to control.

I haven’t read any school stuff. I started with Econ last night. I read 10 pages. I don’t know why every fricken chapter has to be at least 20 pages or more. Like WTF. I still have 3 pages on my psych. I have to finish that today because I need to answer questions about it and it is due tomorrow. I have done all the assignments for Econ except picking a book for the book assignment. I hope I can get the book at the library so I don’t have to buy it.

My stomach is killing me right now. I have a headache and am super tired. I am also aggravated because who ever did my laundry fucked up my clothes. My Pats shirt melted and another shirt bled. I am not happy! I know I have repeated this but fuck I am so aggravated. I usually just have about four things to wash a week because I usually shower just once a week. That isn’t enough for a load of laundry. I am sure me being aggravated is probably contributing to the stomach upset.

Saturday Blog 06092025

I was up half the night with agita (heartburn). Reflux kept bringing stuff up my esophagus. I was trying to get comfortable but my stomach wasn’t having it. I thought about reading but couldn’t bring myself to do it. I finally got to sleep and slept until my med alarm went off. I took my meds, used the bathroom, and then went back to sleep for a bit. My sister called me and that kind of woke me up. I had several messages on my phone.

I got up and had a cup of coffee. I played with the puppy for a bit. She needs to be fixed but can’t until her infection clears up. Poor thing. After I had my coffee, I had the intention to read my Econ book. I instead did the graphing tutorial and failed at it. I had no clue what the fuck I was doing. I don’t get graphs at all. I am lousy at making them and interpreting them. It took a while to figure this out as we had to use the Connect thing and I couldn’t find an area where I could put my access code in. Apparently it uses the Canvas app with it. Who knew. The professor didn’t tell us this. I am already hating this class. I still need to read chapter 1. Maybe I will after this blog.

I need to shower. I gave up on shaving, for now anyways. I need to cut my hair in a week or two. It’s getting long. I don’t know if I have the patience to let it grow out. It just sucks that my hair in front is thin/balding so I just want the sides and back to all be one length. Sox don’t play for another two hours. I got to take my night meds soon. Maybe I will read a little bit of Econ…

The Climb

Last night I watch a Taylor reel and she played the Climb. I love the song as it is so motivating. I have been listening to it on repeat the last couple of days. It is a song by Miley Cyrus from her movie Hannah Montana.

Fucking drama today. The puppy got into her meds and ate all of them. She vomited every where. She is fine, thank god. She also pooped three times across the kitchen which I cleaned up. Her daddy came and picked her up. I had to go to the dentist.

The dentist repeated what he told me last time. I have to pay around $300 in fillings, with insurance. I go for my first filling next month. In the meantime I have to figure out how to get to the oral surgeon.

I came home and was tired. I bought pizza for dinner. My grocery order came in. I have ice cream and I had it for dessert. Unfortunately, I won’t be able to put in the big order for the month. Not unless I get some money from school. They just sent me an email saying I had to verify something. I click on the things and there is no action I need to do. They still have summer term up on my WISER hold list. Hopefully that will clear next week after add/drop. I still haven’t started reading for my Econ class. I will try tomorrow. I have to figure out the graph thing. That is due on Monday. Last night I couldn’t sleep (espresso decided to work at 9pm, ugh) so I read some more of psych. I have to answer some questions about it and then respond to one of my classmates comments.

Today was weight loss shot day. I am down another two pounds, making it nine pounds I have lost so far. I have been eating less. My stomach has been so so today. I only had one cup of coffee today. I didn’t order Starbucks today. My dentist appt was late and I didn’t want to be up all night again, though it would be nice seeing the Sox are on the West coast and game doesn’t start until 945pm. I am not going to make it to the first inning tonight. I am just too tired. I was running a low grade temp again last night. My arm feels better today and the fever is gone. It’s still warm so I have the AC on. I need to take a shower tomorrow. I’ve given up shaving.