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Feeling tired but was able to go out today

I had two vaccines on Tues and they kicked my ass yesterday. I was running a low grade temp most of the day and just felt tired. I didn’t sleep because the fever continued until I took some ibuprofen. Finally it went down and I was able to rest. I still feel tired but less than I was.

I don’t know why, but I got my meds delivered. It was close to the time I had to go to the dentist so I was a little late. I took a Lyft to get to the Square. It was the same tune, I had to get my teeth pulled before it caused more damage. They sent me to the same oral surgeon but now she is in another town. I got to figure out how to get there. There is a bus that goes close to there but I will have to walk 0.3 miles. That is kind of far for me. The dentists weren’t on site so I had to make another appt to be seen. I will be going tomorrow afternoon.

I wanted to read Econ today but I got home and feel so tired again. I haven’t eaten anything all day. I bought a burrito bowl but it was so salty, I couldn’t eat it. I should have bought pizza. I am not really hungry. I haven’t eaten anything since yesterday. I didn’t have dinner last night. I have been drinking water more than Gatorade. I bought a couple of Gatorade bottles the other day as I ran out. I need to do a grocery order soon. I am just waiting for some bills to clear before placing it. I will have Ensure again tonight to take with the Latuda. I am craving ice cream so bad. I wish the pharmacies weren’t selling them for like $7 each. Too expensive. I just tried to Instacart a few groceries so I could have ice cream tonight. They don’t have delivery right now ☹. So I will get it tomorrow morning. Ugh.

I did a few things for my Econ class. I haven’t started the reading yet. My psych class assigned groups. I don’t know anyone in the group and I am the only one with pronouns. Fun. I got to find out about the app and how to use it. I need a app code of some kind and I didn’t get it when I bought the damn thing. The bookstore said the professor has it. I haven’t seen it posted yet on the syllabus or anything. I am glad I read the first chapter so I am not too far behind. I just need to read the article she has, which is 20 pages. It’s about trauma.

Semester starts today

I woke up a few times during the night. I was able to fall asleep after my sister left for work. Then I woke up to my med alarm. I had to pee so I got up and decided I might as well stay up as the semester begins today. I needed coffee first so after I took my meds and played my game for a bit, I went downstairs.

The puppy was in bed with her daddy. She had peed under the kitchen table. I cleaned it up. My sister made pumpkin bread and I had a slice. It was good with chocolate chips. I had two cups of coffee. Then I went to get my laptop. I saw some stuff for Econ class and became overwhelmed. I have to do a graph and there is no help with it. I am going to have to google it as I don’t remember how to do it. It has been a long time since I had to do stuff like that. I have two chapters to read for that class and an assignment. Next week will be quizzes on the chapters. The psych class released the trauma article I need to read. She also had a few assignments that are due on Monday. I have decided that Tues and Thurs will be days I will work on psych and the other days I will work on Econ. Both classes seem to have stuff due on Mondays. Last night I tried finishing psych chapt 1 and got tired on the last page. I was texting with a friend and just went to sleep.

Tomorrow I see my therapist. It will be our third meeting. She wants to go over goals for therapy and I have a hard time with setting them. I don’t really know what I want out of therapy. I always seem to come back to this question of goals for therapy or what I want. Then I think I don’t need it but I tend to suffer severe depressions and on/off suicidality.

My sister had some soup for dinner and I joined her. It was good and settled my stomach a little bit. I’ve been having a bit of upset stomach on and off today with my gallbladder hurting me. I also been having CRPS pain in my foot, mostly bone pain. I took a pain med so I am kind of scattered right now. I need to read a few pages of psych. Tomorrow I will figure out how to set up the apps for my courses. For some reason, it didn’t automatically load.

Labor Day 2025

I got up late as I was up most of the night. I was tired but I just couldn’t sleep. I thought about reading but my brain wasn’t too awake. I had a cup of coffee. My sister made a few pumpkin breads and something with zucchini. She also made a pasta salad and some salsa. My other sister was having a BBQ. It was good. I ate too much. I had to have a burger though. That was the last thing I ate. My cousins came over. We let the puppy run the yard. She loved it. I love watching her run around. She looks like a race dog.

I am still feeling kind of low and a little overwhelmed with classes starting tomorrow. I haven’t done anything today and my sister just threw my laundry on my bed so now I got to clear it off again. I have a mountain of clothes. I have no idea what to do with them. I don’t have a dresser to put them away. So frustrating.

Sox game just ended. We won. Now I can concentrate on reading before bed. I need to finish the chapter before tomorrow so I can read the other material. I plan on alternating days of working on my classes. I still need to get my Econ book in order. It’s still in the package.

I saw my nephew and niece today. I was so happy. I haven’t seen him in so long. I miss him so much. The puppy is barking her head off for some reason. She probably sees something. I am so tired. If it wasn’t so late, I would make another cup of coffee. I only had one cup today. I feel so drained. I need to take some miralax because my bowels aren’t moving despite taking senna every day. I think the weight loss drug is making me constipated. I hate not going every day.