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Saturday Blog 07122024

I got up late. I thought about going to Starbucks but it was wicked cold out. I couldn’t bring myself to leave the house. I had some coffee and then I went to my room to work on my school stuff. I figure I do an hour or two and then eat something. My laptop wouldn’t start. I had to restart it. I have been having to do this a lot lately. I think it is time to get a new one but I am still holding on to this one because once I log in, it works fine. I don’t have any problems. It’s just the logging in part that is the problem. Once it rebooted, I logged in and waited some more for it to load everything. I then loaded what I needed to and wrote away.

Around 2, I got hungry and went downstairs for something to eat. I kept the laptop on because I didn’t want to lose where I was. I heated up the Manwich I made the other day. As I went back to my room, my niece texted me that she was here. I then went downstairs. My sister was cooking. I wasn’t too hungry so just had a little of what she made. Then I went back up to my room. I finished one slide. I had no idea what I was to remember about epigenetics. I will have to go over that in the review this week.

I am somewhat free but I have so much to do. I still need to the aging and brain thing. And I need to work on the paper and handouts. Everything is due this week. Ugh. I hope I can do this. My niece posted a video of my mother and just seeing it, seeing my mother’s face, brought up feelings of hatred. It wasn’t good feelings. I don’t know if I can sort them out with the new therapist or not. It is a lot. I don’t know if I loved her. I know I cared for her. Things to sort out.

I am going to read that Alzheimer’s article for my class. Maybe I will learn to spell the disease correctly without having to look it up every single time. Then I am going to watch it’s a wonderful life. My favorite movie. I am having my groceries delivered tomorrow so I am not sure how much school work I will get done. I want to get the handout done and the paper for the article. I got a quiz Wed. Then it is exam time. Somewhere in there I have to finish my final paper and watch a video for extra credit.

I had a good sleep. I woke up to pee and then I checked my messages. The professor was snowed in so class was going to be on zoom. I took my meds then went back to sleep. I was to have coffee with my sister so I got up around 1130. I made my coffee and went downstairs. I ordered Chinese food. I was craving it. My sister and I talked about what to do for Christmas dinner. Then she told me about her job. She is still getting used to the office and her staff is getting used to her. She is their boss now. My food came so I went upstairs to eat.

After eating i went up to my room as it was close to class time. My mouth felt funny. I was hoping it was just due to spices. I left class a few minutes early to call the restaurant to make sure they didn’t use ginger. They didn’t. I needed a paper for extra credit so I went on Pubmed and looked. I got an idea in class. I found a paper and sent it to the professor. Unfortunately it wasn’t an experimental paper so I couldn’t use it. I searched for something different and I found something I could use. I will do it this weekend.

I’ve been in a funk all day. I just want to sleep. I keep thinking about my mother. The stress of the holiday always makes me depressed and my birthday brings me down. I wish I could count on my sisters to respect my wishes when I tell them I don’t want to do anything but they don’t.

I hurt my back coming up the stairs. No idea WTF I did. I just pulled a muscle. It’s one that has been bothering me for a while now. Went away for a bit but now is back. Hoping some ibuprofen takes care of it. I need to go out tomorrow to see my DMH worker. Then I need to do school work. I have a busy week next week and it’s the last week of classes. Then the semester will be over.