midnightdemons7

I’ve been anxious for the past hour with school stuff. My head has been pounding all day. I managed to get some homework done. Now I am working on my paper.

I feel so tired but I have to do this work. I never showered. I will tomorrow morning. My sister was in a mood today and I didn’t want to deal with her. I got to go out and get blood work done tomorrow. I hope my new migraine med will be in the pharmacy so I can take it. These headaches have been bad.

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I had bad dreams all night and kept waking up to pee. I woke up around 6 and took my meds. I shut off my med alarm. I slept most of the morning. My sister was doing god knows what. She was being loud and yelling for her daughter all morning. I got up around 1pm. I ordered Starbucks. The house was a complete mess with bags everywhere. I have no idea what they were for. They looked like they were filled with clothes. My sister was doing something in the kitchen. The table was completely covered with shit. So were the counters. I have no idea where my Keurig machine was, it was no longer on the counter and my sister kept asking me if I scaled it. I told her that wasn’t the problem. I just wanted to do school work and be left alone. I got a text from my niece that she was here. I went downstairs. Then my sister there started after me about recycling and other things. I was like WTF. Just leave me the fuck alone. My other sister makes her own mess and wants everything to be perfect when she comes home from work, which isn’t going to happen all the time. I didn’t say shit except I do what I can and left it at that.

I got a message the other day from a woman on FB marketplace that wanted to buy some mugs I had posted. I forgot that we were meeting today. She sent me a message an hour before we were supposed to meet so I went upstairs and got dressed. The wind made things wicked cold. She was late but we met and I got ten bucks off the deal. I then went home and decided to take the new T home. I walked down the street. By halfway down, I was out of breath. I kept pushing and by the time I got home and up to my room, I was kind of wheezing and coughing. I think it was because it was cold out. It took forever to calm down.

I got a headache I’ve been dealing with all day. I think this is day 9. I am miserable. I can’t start the Depakote until Monday. I hope I don’t have this headache all weekend. I might though. I still need to do some school work. I have been procrastinating all day. I think I am just going to work on the worksheet. That should take me an hour or so to do.

I feel so depressed. I was glad I got out of the house because I really haven’t left the house since Tues. I just want to stay in bed lately and do nothing. These headaches haven’t been helping with the feelings. It is so hard to get out of bed. I feel like total crap. My anxiety has been through the roof the past few weeks. There has been so much that I am trying to control. I have been pushing myself through things, especially with these headaches. Otherwise, nothing will get done.

Freezing Friday

I didn’t sleep well because the wind was howling last night. I got a migraine and it was really bad. I was up for a couple of hours. I almost overslept my appointment. I got up a half hour to spare. I didn’t have time to make a cup of coffee, though. The appointment went well. She switch the preventative migraine med and is changing the anti-convulsant med to Depakote. I tried to get the med delivered but for some reason, I couldn’t. I can’t start the Depakote right away. I have to have some blood work done first. I also will be decreasing the Topamax. It hasn’t done anything for my headaches. I gave it a good run though.

After the appointment, I grabbed my mug, some coffee, my half and half and went downstairs to my sisters. I had coffee with her. We talked for a bit. It was nice. She was home as she needed to take time off of work. I guess she has to take time off or she loses it. I still have a headache.

I got a response from my professor. I can skip this week’s discussion. I am glad. It is too technical for my brain. I really tried to answer the questions but this headache is making it impossible. I had a meeting with my DMH worker. I told her I got a therapist appointment. She was happy about that. She asked about Thanksgiving. I told her I am probably not going to be happy as it’s over my aunt’s house and she doesn’t make food like my mom does. I actually don’t like her cooking. She tends to add stuff that shouldn’t be in stuff. I am going to bring gin and tonic and a can of cranberry sauce. Maybe a pie too.

I roasted a chicken breast for supper. It was good. I had pumpkin eggnog with it. It was good but not as good as the one I bought before. It just tasted like pumpkin. The other one tasted like a pumpkin pie.

The wind has stopped blowing but it is still cold in my room. I don’t mind it. It is in the 60s so I can handle it. If it was in the 50s, I would be turning on the heat. I have a long sleeve shirt on and another blanket on the bed. I got to take the AC out next weekend. I think the days of it being in the 70s are over.

Some good news

I got an email this morning from my professor that her kid was sick and she would be having class via zoom today. I was glad I didn’t have to miss class. Though while she was talking about an important topic, the therapist place called. I was placed with a therapist! I have an appointment in the beginning of December. It’s in the morning and I hope I can get up early to make it as it is at 10am. The rest of the class went well. Tues is going to be on zoom as well for Thanksgiving break as some students are traveling. I am glad.

I have been dealing with headache all day today. I woke up a few times with it, some of it due to dreams and other times just because my head was hurting and I had to go pee. I tried to work on the discussion but it is wicked technical and the last two questions I just can’t answer with my head hurting. I can’t seem to come up with an answer as my brain can’t process the jargon. I hate this because I’ve had all week to do stuff and these headaches are preventing me from doing it. I am seeing the neuro tomorrow morning. Hope she can help.

My coffee machine broke yesterday. I was not happy. I went to my sister’s today for coffee. I just had one cup. I talked to my sister today and she wanted to upgrade her machine so I will have hers. I don’t have to buy another one. I am fine with that.