midnightdemons7

Having a bad day. I met with my professor who corrected my exam while I saw her. I did better than exam 1 but the stupid build a brain i did horrible on so those two thing knocked my grade a full letter grade down. I’ve been depressed all day. Then I found out my Keurig is broken. I had to go to my sister’s to get coffee. My cousin took to me the grocery store. I bought some ground beef to make sloppy Joes and they had pumpkin eggnog. I bought half and half.

I called the therapy place and they still are using my deadname, the fuckers. Anyways, since I turned them down, they have no idea when a slot will be available. Just great.

After I came home from shopping, I went to Starbucks to do some school work for more caffeine. I worked on my citations and read the article for this week’s discussion. I also told the professor I won’t be going to class tomorrow as getting home took more than two hours yesterday. I was so fucking grumpy. I didn’t want to go to class but did anyway and it was a nightmare trying to get home. Not going through that tomorrow.

I have a wicked headache. This is the 6th day of the same headache. I sent a message to my neuro but got no response. I see her Fri. I haven’t taken anything because I don’t really know what to take. Ibuprofen isn’t helping and it’s not a migraine. I am so frustrated.

Manic Monday

I’ve been up since before six. My sister got up and forgot to shut the light in the hall. Or maybe daylight was already breaking. I don’t know. I couldn’t go back to sleep. I got up when she went downstairs the second time. I knew she would be having something to eat before leaving for work. I took my meds and checked my messages. I still had the do not disturb on so could only check those that had the notifications on the icon. I didn’t want to get up for coffee just yet. I had a slight headache. I checked my email and did some laptop stuff. The professor hasn’t graded the exam yet. There also isn’t a new folder for this week.

After doing that, I went to have my coffee. It was nice but cold out. I got a message on Facebook saying there was going to be shuttle busses on the red line and it put me in a bad mood. I will have to leave early tomorrow as the stupid T has the buses in the middle of the line and right before the campus. Then it will extend on the 24^th but I don’t know if that is just that day or what. I ordered lunch and then my headache sort of went away but then came back fiercely while I was reading the article for my paper. I couldn’t read anymore. It was a lot of information and I kept having to move my head to adjust my eyes with my glasses to see the paper on my laptop. It’s a 32 page paper. I am only on page 12. I wanted to shower today but haven’t been able to just yet. I think a nice hot shower is what my neck needs. It has been so sore lately. I think I am on my phone too much.

I called the pharmacy for my migraine med. They finally have it in stock but it won’t be ready till like 6pm. I will get it tomorrow after class. I have such pressure in my head. I took some flonase to try and ease it and it helped but now the pressure is back. My head hurts so much. I just want to cry. It’s been four days now I have had a headache. I am late in taking the migraine med. I hate this shit. I feel like I can’t do anything. Everything is so hard when you got a headache. Really hoping a shower makes me feel better. At least I will be clean.

I woke up with a headache. I took my meds and went back to sleep. I woke up from a dream about work. It was weird. I checked my messages and then got up. I still had the headache. I was hoping coffee would help but I was pretty sure it wasn’t going to do anything. I had my biscuits. Someone threw out my Chinese food. I am not happy. I also forgot to put the chicken I took out in the fridge. It was out all night. Ugh. So I had no dinner.

I had my coffee and then went up to my room. I wanted to finish my article I started reading last night and do the citations. I felt kind of anxious about school stuff. My laptop was taking forever to load my email. I got a message from the group over some stuff. I responded. The headache turned into a migraine and my head just hurt so much. I took meds.

I tried to figure out what to do for dinner. I made spicy ramen and some fried rice. I did my meds for the week. I still feel awful. Nothing got done. My migraine is gone but I still have a headache. I got one more day to do something before I head back to class on Tues. I might have to go to the grocery store tomorrow for half and half. Might get some ground beef too to make manwich. Haven’t had that in a long time and that will be a few meals. I’ve been up a few hours and I’m tired already. Damn headache.

I got to call the pharmacy tomorrow to see if it has my migraine med in stock. I’m late in taking it because they haven’t had it. Such a pain in the ass. I see my neuro Fri. I think she will be switching me to something else. Hopefully it will work better. I’m tired of these headaches.