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Walkaway Joe

I didn’t go to class today because I was dealing with a headache all night and then around class time, the headache returned. I feel like shit. The return label box came for my Holter monitor so I ordered pizza and a slice of calzone from my favorite pizza place. I was bummed to find out that they don’t have half pizzas anymore. Just small pizzas. I didn’t want that but whatever. As I was walking to the post office, I was out of breath and got wicked fatigued really quick. By the time I picked up the pizza and was making the walk home, I was really pushing it. I was so out of breath I had to stop a few times. My legs were hurting me. I have no idea why. I have done this walk more than a thousand times and never felt this way. I don’t know if it is because I had the headache that I just was fatigued a lot faster or what. I am glad I didn’t trek into Boston.

After I ate, I tried working on the schoolwork with my head pounding and feeling wicked tired. I see the neuro NP tomorrow morning. I hope she has some answers for me or at least can help me. I plan on going to the social security office afterwards. I might as well. I will be in the area. I have nothing else to do tomorrow.

I need to shave and shower but haven’t made an effort to do either yet. I might just shower. I don’t know. I have no energy. I don’t have to worry about dinner because I didn’t touch the pizza. The calzone slice was way bigger than I was expecting and I ate it all. I am still full from it. I don’t know if I will eat it. I still have the steak from Friday. I am so tired. I slept alright despite waking up a few times during the night. I did wake up from a dream about my mother that lead to a headache. It went away on its own and I was able to get back to sleep. My foot was itchy during the night and I took some skin off the top of my foot. I just bought some new sneakers and wearing them hurt. Actually, wearing any type of footwear hurts. Damn open skin. I would put a bandaid on it but I know it will just come off.

Indian summer is happening the last few days. Temps have been in the 70s past few days. It has been nice. Hope it stays this way for a while.

Post wedding

My day started earlier than I wanted to because my sister turned on the TV in the hotel room. It woke me up with its nonsense. I thought she was watching the Hallmark channel as the show was about love and relationships but there were swears in there and talk about sexual stuff. I think it was on HBO Max or something. Anyways, I got up and took my meds and then did my Italian for the day. We were all going to go out for breakfast. I thought that was nice. It was so warm out.

The wedding was awesome. It was a long day but it was so much fun. And a great deal of pictures were taken. I cried a few times. It was emotional. My baby is now married. The DJ played love Story and I sang and danced. It was so much fun.

I came home and did some schoolwork and then had to take a nap. Then my brother in law called me for dinner. Oops. I slept a little longer than I intended. I still am so tired. I have a slight headache. I am trying to stay up for a little longer to take notes from last class. There were a lot of notes. This week there is a discussion and the topic is chronic pain hurts the brain. My favorite topic. I can’t wait to read the article.

Tomorrow I have class. I have a somewhat busy week. I hope the box for the holter monitor comes so I can return it. I was hoping I would have come the weekend but it didn’t. There was supposed to be a return label in the box but there wasn’t. Now I just have to wait. Wed I have an appointment with the NP in neuro. Hope she can help me with these headaches. I am thankful I didn’t get one during the wedding. I made sure I drank a lot of water, even though it tasted terrible. The water at the bar was much better than the water at the table. I picked out my classes for next semester. They don’t have Italian MWF so I picked it online. I hope it isn’t going to be intense as my other online class was. That class was a joke.

I had to get up early today because we had rehearsal for the wedding. I managed to have a little something for breakfast and a cup of coffee. I didn’t have time for two.

It was a nice a day,  much warmer than it was when I look at the Temps the beginning of the week. Tomorrow is supposed to be in the 70s which is nice. I’ll probably be sweating in my suit. The venue is gorgeous and outside. Of course I am the first person in the procession line with my nephew. He couldn’t be there today as he had to work. After we practiced a few times, we left to the restaurant for lunch. It was good food. I am still full. I was feeling pretty tired and needed a nap. My sister and aunt both said it was because I am not “used” to being out. It’s bullshit. It’s because I have depression and chronic illness that I am tired. I was so pissed off. Didn’t help that I had the beginning of another fucking headache cooking. We went to the hotel after the restaurant. Soon as we settled into the room I changed. The shoes were hurting my feet. I rested for a bit. I tried to snooze but I couldn’t. I need to study. I brought my textbook with me but forgot my library book. Oh well.

Tomorrow my baby is getting married. I can’t believe it. She is all grown up now. I don’t know how this happened. One minute she was this tiny little girl and now she is getting married. I wish her the best.