midnightdemons7

Mesa mes

I didn’t sleep well because my feet were cold most of the night. I tried to keep them warm but couldn’t even though they were under the blankets. I didn’t have the AC on. Both feet were cold. I kept having to move them to keep them warm. I got up right before my med alarm to pee and then I just stayed in bed. I was so tired. I think the vaccines are affecting me more. Yesterday was worse and my arm is still sore. I am still tired today.

Last night I read my textbook for a little more than two hours and I still didn’t finish the chapter. I have about seven pages more to read. I got up about noon and had coffee. My niece made pancakes and I had some. Then my sister told us to go downstairs for her party. The football game was going to start. I stayed until the burgers were made and then I went upstairs. I am stuffed. So much good food. My aunt came over, which was nice.

I laid down for a bit and got palpitations. My heartrate went up to 113. I am trying to calm down. I don’t know why it is happening. I don’t feel anxious. I just feel so tired. I hate it. I have no damn energy for anything.

I need to do my meds for the week. I haven’t done it yet. I will probably change my sheets tomorrow. I don’t feel like doing it today. I am kind of in a blah mood. I really need to get through the textbook reading. That is my priority for today.

Saturday Blog 07092024

I woke up around 1am to pee and had a really difficult time going back to sleep. I finished Moby Dick. Such a strange sad book. I thought my sister and I were going to go suit shopping but she changed her mind and I was grateful because I was so damn tired. I thought it was because I was up half the night but I ended up napping after I had a couple cups of coffee, which I never usually do. I think the vaccines are making me really tired. I have been resting all day as I have been slowly clearing my bed off. I have made progress. There is just small stuff on my bed now that I can move off. I should be able to change my sheets tomorrow.

Other than resting, I really haven’t done much of anything else all day. I still need to read my textbook which I probably will after I write this blog. I hope it isn’t a long chapter. I have two chapters I need to read. I wanted to go out today but I was too tired. I have only been up for a few minutes at a time most of the day and been laying down for the rest of the day. I had the rest of the pizza I made yesterday. I might have some ice cream. I don’t know though. I want chocolate.

I’ve been very thirsty most of the day today. During the night I was as well. I was alternating between Powerade and water. I just finished my liter of water. I need to fill it up again. I don’t remember if I had two or three cups of coffee today. My sister wanted me to try her pasta salad so I went downstairs with my coffee and I lost count of my cups. The pasta salad was very good. Tomorrow she is having a party because it is the start of the football season. I don’t know if my brother in law is going to make his chili. The weather has been nice and cool. I am so glad the heat is gone for now. I did have to put the AC on last night as my room got a little hot. It’s comfortable now.

My sinuses are so congested. I have post nasal drip and it’s driving me crazy as I keep having to clear my throat. I should start using Flonase again to try and clear it out some. I just hate using another medication. Tomorrow I go up on the Topamax. I will be taking 50mg at night and 25 mg at day for a total of 75mg a day. Another week and then I will be at 100 mg a day. I just hope it doesn’t interfere with my thinking. So far it hasn’t and I think it is because we are going slow with the dose. I don’t know if I am going to stay at this dose or what. But we’ll see if it helps. So far I haven’t had headaches but I did get a migraine last night. My eye felt like an ice pick was in it. I had to take a triptan for it. I didn’t have any linger headaches in the morning. I was just tired. I hope I am not this tired tomorrow.

It’s Friday 06092024

I got up early. I had an appointment at Walgreens to have my flu and covid vaccine. I made some oatmeal. I had bought store brand because they didn’t have Quaker and it wasn’t the same. I had a cup of coffee and then had to get dressed. Someone was in the bathroom so I couldn’t brush my teeth. I still need to shave and shower so will do that later. It takes me so long to motivate myself to shower. I hate it. When I am in the shower, it doesn’t feel like a chore and I wash up and rinse off fairly quickly. But then I need to rest afterwards and feel so tired. That is what I hate. I don’t feel refreshed like I used to feel.

The shots went ok. It didn’t hurt like last year. I hope I don’t get sick from them. I have the weekend to recover if I do. I am roasting the zucchini that I bought for lunch. My sister threw out the pizza that I made the other night and I am so mad. I hate when she doesn’t mind her business. Now I want pizza. I just don’t want to make a whole one, though. I wish I had hot dogs. I am in the mood for one. I don’t get my food stamps until next week. I will get them then. I still have baked beans. Unfortunately, I didn’t look at the ounces of the cans and they are the big ass cans. No way I am going to eat the whole thing. I might have them for Sunday when we have the big party for football season. My brother in law is having a thing.

I had some weird dreams and thankfully, no headaches. I dreamt I was going camping and made a few dishes and desserts for it. I was in my apartment when I first moved to this city. It was weird because then I was in class and the professor asked me how I was feeling. I said a mix of emotion as I was going camping and make some chocolate dessert or something like that. It got her interested and then I woke up right before my alarm went off. I did wake up during the night. Good old 3am hour. I read for a bit. I have five chapters left in Moby Dick. I wish they would find this whale already, lol. They are close to it.

I am trying not to lay back down and rest. I am running out of gas though. I am not sure what I am going to do today. I need to read a couple chapters in my textbook. I also want to start the library book that I checked out the other day. I am still waiting to hear back from my pcp about my blood work results. I might now hear back today. I have a meeting with the social worker this afternoon. I am glad because my mood has been bad the past couple of days.