midnightdemons7

Wicked depressed today. Had a migraine. Slept most of the day. Still feel like a loser because I got nothing done. Need to finish library book due on Mon. Don’t know if I can concentrate. Just want to sleep. Managed to eat something and had coffee.

I am going to ask one of my nieces to help me with my room. I’m so overwhelmed I can’t manage. I take some stuff off and then add. I can’t win. I want to get the bed cleared and changed before the semester starts. Next week I’ll be busy with appts. I have two on Monday.

I’ve been thinking about going into the hospital but it’s so disruptive. I don’t know if I can do it again. I haven’t been in since the year my mother died in 2023. I keep managing to avoid it. I’m not actively suicidal but I keep having ideation. I have a plan but it would take a lot to act on it.

It snowed today so I didn’t pick up my stuff that I ordered. I got to go tomorrow. Hopefully it won’t be icy. I’ve been sneezing all day. I hope I’m not getting sick.

I am wiped out today as I didn’t sleep last night at all. Been up since 230.

Lightening in a bottle

It was cold and windy again today but the temp was ten degrees warmer so I went out. I went to campus to get my books and then I went to the pharmacy to get my meds. I asked while I was there when I could get the migraine med and they said the insurance won’t cover it until next month. I got to call them. I had to wait a half hour for the bus so by the time I came home, I wasn’t in the mood to call anyone. I’ll call tomorrow.

I came home and had something to eat. Then I got a headache. I haven’t showered today but plan to. I got my new PJs that I want to wear.