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Tiring Sunday

I woke up around 5 with allergies so bad I had to take a Benadryl. I went back to sleep for a few hours and just had the sheet on me. I woke up drenched in sweat. I need to take a shower but it has been a day. I forgot that I ordered my groceries. Around the time I finally had motivation to shower, the delivery was on its way so I couldn’t. I went up and down the stairs so many times that by 2pm I was exhausted and I only been up for four hours. I rested for a bit. I went up and down a few more times. My niece made pasta salad and my sister made a burger which I was craving. I had wanted to go to the butcher shop to get some burgers but still haven’t gone.

I have a shit ton of books to read. I bought the Principles of Psychology and it is a textbook. It will be my summer read. I honestly don’t know what to do with myself now that classes have ended. I fired my therapist so I no longer have therapy right now.  I see my DMH case worker this week. Today has been a rough day. For some reason, I got really angry when I got fatigued. Like I just wanted to yell at someone. Then I just got sad and wished I was fucking dead. All because I didn’t have the energy to shower. I have been sweating all day so I stink on top of my stink. I don’t remember the last time I showered but it has been a few days. My allergies are just making me miserable. I have a knot of phlegm in my throat that I can’t swallow or cough up. I keep clearing my throat and it is so irritated. I have been bad at drinking fluids today. I did drink some water but not a good amount.

I want to go to Starbucks because they have a macadamia nut syrup that is awesome. I want to have an iced latte with it. Their cold brew is delicious but I don’t like the foam, which is flavored macadamia nut. It’s like whipped cream and though I do like it on desserts, I don’t like it for my coffees or lattes. I used flonase today to try and help this congestion. I also took a Sudafed but nothing is helping except the Benadryl which just makes me sleepy. I don’t want to get used to it otherwise it won’t help me sleep. I plan on taking some tonight, again. It really dries me up.

I have been using a bird app to ID the birds that have been chirping. There was a white-breasted Nuthatch that was just heard outside my room. I don’t know where these birds are as there really isn’t that many trees in the back of the house. There used to be but we cut them down. They were dying anyways from neglect or disease, I’m not sure. The yard was a complete mess like the rest of the house when we first moved in.

Part of the stress with the shower, was that my sister took the curtain down to wash it and hasn’t put it back up yet, so I would have to go to the first floor to shower. It just stressed me out because of the stairs. But my sister took a shower so now I know it is up and running again. I am going to trim my armpit hairs as they are long. I might take my beard off. I am not sure yet. But I know I am going to try and shower today.

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I finally emptied my bed and changed the sheets. I am washing my comforter and it is in the dryer as we speak. Don’t really need it as it is hot as hell in my room. It’s another hot one today. I can’t wait to put in the AC. I need to clear that space. I also need to shower as I have been sweating like crazy. I am tired and I need to rest my back for a bit before I do that.

My Sox are imploding. Pivetta is pitching and he just got slammed. Brewers lead 5-0 right now. I am not happy. I can’t stand Nick. He is a better reliever than starter. But the Sox don’t have too many arms. Two pitchers are out for surgery and it is not likely Whitlock will return this season. We were already down a pitcher when the season began. Management never got us one so now we are suffering. The O’s won today so I think we might be headed for last place again if we aren’t already there.

Allergies are bad today. My nose hasn’t stopped running and I haven’t stopped sneezing. I just placed my grocery order. I need to have my drinks and water. I will have to reschedule my dentist appointment again. I feel so tired. I got up around 1 maybe? I don’t remember but I know I took my meds late. My sinuses hurt so bad. Post nasal drip is awful. I keep clearing my throat and it is getting irritated. I feel miserable.

Freaking Friday

As I suspected, my doctor’s office lost my urine so I had to give another one today. It totally messed up my day. I was tired when I came home. It was still hot out but there was a cool breeze. I forgot my keys. Luckily my sister was home.

I ordered Thai for dinner and the pad thai was nothing special. King and I in Boston has spoiled me. I will never order it from any other place. The new place was promising but didn’t hold up. The crab rangoons were good though.

My UA was good, no sign of infection but I am still having urinary symptoms. I think it is most likely due to the testosterone. I suspect the NP will prescribe me estrogen cream for it. It’s supposed to help. We’ll see if it does.

I found my box of catheters. I have plenty should I need to cath again. My allergies have been awful today. I have phlegm in the back of my throat that I keep clearing but it doesn’t go anywhere. So annoying. I have been drinking a lot of fluid today because it has been hot and I have been sweating. I managed to clear some things off my bed. It is a work in progress. Hopefully tomorrow I can tackle it all as I don’t have plans to do anything.

I’m going to listen to the game and just relax tonight. I hope I can stay up all 9 innings. It is going to be a challenge as I feel so tired. My final grade is an 89, which is a B+. I am happy and proud of myself. Last night my foot flared up. And now it is flared up again. I had to take gaba and pain meds last night. I was up most of the night again. I didn’t go to bed until maybe 4. I finished Norse Mythology. A friend wrote a book of poems and I started it. It was emotional so I had to put the book down. She is such a good writer. I played with my book and all things are set to go for June 14^th. I am so excited. My friend still hasn’t sent me a reformatted pdf of the cover yet. She is on vacation so I am trying to be patient.