down bad

Down bad

Down bad is my new favorite Taylor song. Actually, there are quite a few that have become my favorite. But the swears in this song is on point. I love it. I love her. I had another dream about her last night. Just hanging out like we were friends. Yeah right! It would be cool to meet in person but I don’t think it will ever happen.

I went to class today and it took me two fucking hours to get home. It took me like an hour to get to the square and then an hour to get home after I picked up my meds. I had to wait in the pharmacy for a bit because one of them wasn’t ready yet. I still don’t know if my doc put in the prior auth for my migraine med. I need to call tomorrow to find out the status. I hate making phone calls. HA I don’t have to call. It is ready for me to pick up. I will have it delivered tomorrow.

I am worried about the fall as I have class starting at 11 and then again at 2. Coming home at 530 after leaving my house at 0930 doesn’t seem like a good thing. There are supposed to be some track work around slow zones coming up soon. I just hope the service is better for it.

I am wicked tired. Sox had a day game and lost again. They are home for the week or so. I got tickets for Saturday’s game. I can’t wait. I haven’t been to Fenway since before Covid. I actually don’t remember the last time I went. It has been a while. I just hope my ankle doesn’t flare up like it did today. Part of the reason it took forever to get home was because of pain. My ankle is feeling ok now that I have been resting it. I don’t know if it is my sneakers or where the injury is that is causing the pain. I need to call ortho but I really don’t want to.

It’s just about 8pm right now and I am seriously thinking about going to bed. My body is just hurting. My chest was hurting me again this morning. I slept like a rock last night, which probably means I won’t sleep tonight. I ordered my groceries so I hope they come earlier than later. I won’t know until tomorrow morning. Today is the anniversary of my father passing away. It’s been eight years. I miss the bastard.

another bad night sleeping

Another bad night of sleeping

I had dozed off around 2130 and then woke up around 2330 and I was up for most of the night. I didn’t think I would go back to sleep. I did and then I had dreams that gave me headaches. I woke up feeling really tired but I had to get my glasses today. I had some coffee and then left the house. I took an Uber to get there and figured I would take the T back home.

I got there and the glasses were the same frame. That is not what I ordered. They tried to find the frames that I did order but couldn’t so I got another frame. Now I got to wait a couple of weeks for them. I love the new frame and the transition lenses. My prescription didn’t change so now I have different glasses to wear. I like this option.

I came home and I bought a cheese steak sub and some fries. I hadn’t eaten all day and I was hungry. I came home and ate half of the sub. I just couldn’t finish it. It was too big. I came upstairs after I ate and crashed. I slept for a little bit and still feel tired and I have a headache. I am not sure if it is my sinuses or not. I need to take a shower today. I probably will after the game. They lost last night but are leading right now.

I started chapter 10 last night as I read because I couldn’t sleep. I got the extra credit I put in. I am so happy about that. It increased my grade a little. I want to finish the chapter but not sure as right now my head is pounding. I just took a migraine med. I am waiting for the injection med to be renewed. Insurance needs to approve it. If I don’t hear anything tomorrow, I will call them to find out what the status is.

Sox are smoking the Guardians right now, lead 4-0. They chased the starting pitcher. Haha. I love this game so much. Last night I was in my happy place as I was listening to the game and just relaxing. I was going to go to the game on Saturday but the tickets are too expensive. So I am going to buy some hot dogs and maybe some beer and have a little while listening to the game.

Editing done!

Editing done!

I have been doing a little editing every day the past few days and today I am finally done! Now I just need to format it for Amazon which is a headache so I will put that off for another day. My ankle is hurting me today so I didn’t go to class but I am reading my book. I did chapter 9 words. My allergies are fucking killing me and my sinuses hurt so bad. I need to go to the pharmacy but I really don’t feel like walking. So I asked my cousin for a ride and he obliged. The pollen is high again today but I got the sinus stuff and some MTN dew that I decided to grab. Someone ate my Ben and Jerry’s. I am not happy about this.

My new glasses are ready. I am going to pick them up tomorrow if my ankle is feeling better. I just had something to eat and now I feel a nap coming on. I am so tired all of a sudden. I hate when the sleepiness kicks in and it is nearly every day around 5pm.

I have been waiting for my cell bill to come in and apparently I already paid it for this month. My bill should be lower now that I paid off the new phone. Sox are playing early tonight so I can’t wait to listen to the game. They are in Cleveland. I was thinking about going to the game on Saturday but tickets are too expensive. I am not going to pay $60 for just ONE ticket. They have not been good at home. I will just listen to the game. Maybe I will buy some Fenway Franks and have a few hot dogs. Game time is around dinner time so that might be a plan.

I am so happy I got the editing done. I feel relieved. Now I can concentrate on my psych class. I don’t know what is going on with my muscles but they have been cramping all afternoon. I hope I don’t have to take an Ativan before the game starts. I took a Sudafed so my sinuses are clear but I got major post nasal drip going on. My face still hurts though. I might take some ibuprofen.

If my ankle feels better tomorrow, I will go pick up my glasses. It’s an hour away by T. There are no places to eat or have coffee near the vision store. I would have to go to the square up the street. It has been two weeks since I hurt my ankle/foot. I have been meaning to make an appointment with ortho but keep forgetting. I don’t think I need to be seen as the pain is only worse when I am on my foot too much. I’ve been resting it today.

What makes you nervous? #WPDP

What makes you nervous?

I never was an anxious person until my PTSD got out of control. Now just leaving the house will make me nervous. If I have an appt, the nervousness isn’t so bad. But if I want to go to Starbucks I often find soon as I enter the store I want to go home.