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Football Sunday

My sister had a gathering of friends and neighbors today. I woke up around the time it started. I had some food, a little of everything. I watched the game on my sister’s new TV. It was huge and great color. We won the game and I was in a good mood.

I woke up at 330 because the puppy was crying. I don’t know what her problem was. I didn’t know if my niece or her daddy was home but looks like just the daddy was home. She was missing momma. She is out with her daddy now and I am happy. She needs to be out of the house more. She won’t go out with me because she is skittish. My brother in law wanted to show her to his friends but she ran away when she saw the leash.

I read my text book till about 8am and then I went back to sleep for a bit. The chapter is so long, at least 50 pages. I still have one more chapter to read plus some web pages. I am so tired. I had a cup of coffee after I ate to try and wake up. All it did was make me feel fuller. I don’t know if I am going to get back to the reading or I am just going to skip it and go to the next chapter.

I am still listening to the show girl by Taylor. The songs are repeating in my head every day so I have to listen to the album. I still haven’t decided which song is my favorite. I have played ruin the friendship on repeat a few times. I like that song. Makes me want to reveal to my crush she is my crush. I dance to Opalite all the time. It is such a fun song.

Saturday Blog 18102025

No kings day. It was a great turnout all over the US. I don’t know if it will do any good. It was a peaceful protest. If there was any altercations, I haven’t heard of them yet. I have been off the social media and only been on facebook which doesn’t always bring the news, so to speak.

I was restless last night so read until midnight or so. I slept until 2pm and then by 4 I was tired again so went back to bed. Now I feel more tired. I haven’t done any school work today but I will once I finish this blog. I am trying to catch up on my readings but it is slow going. Just a lot of stuff to read.

I got a message from my pcp yesterday that my bloodwork was good. My liver is mildly inflamed but better than what it was. So there is no physical reason for me being tired. Guess it is the depression. We talked about seeing someone interim at the office. They have therapists I can see. I put in a call to my insurance and Monday I will be getting a call with a referral. I got to call the ophthalmology place as they haven’t called me either and it has been more than a week. I got to get my records from my previous optometrist but it is a struggle to get there.

I haven’t had any weight changes in the last two weeks. I seem to be stuck. I guess I need to increase the dose, which my pcp said she will do when the time comes. She is glad I am losing slowly. I am too. I was talking about this with my sisters and they were not supportive. I just let them talk. I had some food today but not much as my stomach was kind of finicky. My med alarm for night meds went off and when I woke up, I was really nauseous. I took the Zofran with my night meds.

Tomorrow my sister is having everyone over for the football game. I don’t know if I will attend because I have so much reading to do. I might just stop by to grab something to eat and then go back upstairs.

Long day of walking around

I was sleeping late because I had insomnia last night. My pcp’s nurse called about noon saying they had a cancelation with my pcp and did I want it. I said yes. This forced me to get up and I was not happy about it. I had some coffee and played with the pup who was in a mood not to be dealt with. I let her be.

After my coffee, I decided to walk to the station. It was a cold day but not too cold. I took my time getting there. I left in plenty of time. I didn’t get short of breath or anything so that was good. I just felt tired. I went to Starbucks when I got to North Station. I had my latte with five shot espresso. It was good. Didn’t help the brain fog. I met my doc and we talked a good talk. She wants me to call the places for therapy. Then she examined me. She wanted blood work, which meant doing T levels at a different time. I see her in two weeks, unless the blood shows something.

I met with my DMH worker for an hour. I honestly thought we would meet for a half hour but it turned into an hour. I was tired. I hadn’t had anything to eat. I didn’t know what I want and I still needed to pick up my meds. I walked to the station and then waited for the train back home. Then I waited for the bus to the square. I ended up getting the rice dish I like. I didn’t get home till after 6. I had been out all afternoon. I was beat.

I got a headache. I keep checking to see if my bloodwork is back. It hasn’t come back yet. I tried to drink some water as all I had today was coffee. I only was able to drink a few ounces. I don’t feel that thirsty. I am going to go nap or try and sleep. I don’t care if I wake up in the middle of the night again. I like reading at that hour. It is when I can concentrate pretty good. Why it has to be between 2 and 4am I will never know. I made a note of who to call for tomorrow. If I call one place that will be good enough for me. My DMH worker wants me to have therapy at her place. We’ll see. I will call tomorrow and see if I get anywhere. I just hope I don’t have to redo the intake.