midnightdemons7

Headache and being up early

I woke up at 4 and couldn’t go back to sleep. I waited till my sister left for work and then got up for coffee. I took my meds. I was kind of hungry so made pancakes. The only thing I had to do today was pick up my meds in the square. I planned on doing that in the afternoon. I had two cups of coffee and then went back to my room.

The puppy is still with her daddy. He is supposed to bring her by sometime today but hasn’t yet. I was able to nap for a couple of hours. I really shouldn’t have as it just made me tired. I had some turkey breast that my sister bought for me. It was around noon. I waited another hour before getting ready to leave. The bus schedule was so far apart. I decided to take the later bus so I would get to the square around 2 when they opened after their lunch break. Pharmacist take their break at 130-2 each day.

I got my meds and some vitamins that I was running low on. I forgot to get toothpaste. I will just run to the store tomorrow and grab it. I am the only person that buys it. I got a little headache when I came home and it just got worse. My post nasal drip is out of control. I keep gagging. I have been trying to drink water but it doesn’t do anything. I used some Flonase. Sometimes that helps.

I tried taking a nap but my phone kept going off. There has been a lot of Sox news today and the guy I follow I have on notifications so he kept going off every time he posted something. Looks like we might be losing one of the good rookie pitchers. I am sad to see that happen. But we got Sonny Gray!! I think he came up through the Sox farm system. He is a really good pitcher but has not done good at Fenway in his career. Hopefully that will change.

I feel depressed. While I was having coffee and turkey breast, the house was empty and quiet. I missed my mother. She would be baking cookies and tomorrow she would make her stuffing that I love. I would always eat some of it. One year, I ate a good corner of it. It was so good. I love it. Her last Turkey day with us she said she missed her brother Joe. Coincidently, she is buried next to him so they are together. I kind of wish we had put her maiden name on the eulogy. I remember my father wanted her to change her name back to it. He was a jerk about stuff like that. I missed him too today. He would be over my sister’s shoulder as she cooked to make sure she was cooking the way he does. He wouldn’t eat what she made though. LOL He never would eat something that someone else cooked. He thought he was the grand chef, better than any restaurant in the world.

My lamp bulb that I have had for at least 10 years finally gave out today. It was flickering and then there was a smell. I switch to the overhead light and then took it out. It was getting burn marks on one of the threads. I don’t think I have another bulb. I had a bunch of them but no idea where they are and I specifically need a 60w bulb. My brother in law is going to get me one. Hopefully it is one of the LED/energy saver kind. Otherwise I will have to buy one when I get paid next week. I’m just glad I was home when it was starting to go.

Tomorrow depending on the weather, I need to go to the grocery store. I want my squash and need a thing of half and half. My sister got me some but it is only a quart, which will only last me a few days. That is all I really need for now. Next week I have a bigger order as I need to order my Powerades. My yogurt is on sale which is nice as well as my favorite cheese. I am so tired. I really hope I don’t wake up in the middle of the night again but it has become a habit. I know I should have gotten up and tried reading but I wasn’t in the mood. I tried reading with this headache. It’s a 40 page article and I am only on page 16. I am wonder what the hell I am reading because, though it is interesting, it doesn’t float my boat. I have two more online readings to do plus textbook. Today I got the new stuff and a preview of the exam. Sounds like there will be groups assigned for the exam but she said it was short and only 90 mins so I can’t imagine like 5 of us working on stuff, unless it is cumulative. Then holy fuck am I screwed. I hope it isn’t. I think evaluations will come next week. My advisor emailed me early this morning about registering for class. I told her I can’t register until the 1^st. if I can’t, I will pick another class.

Behind in reading

Day has been going ok so far. I had therapy and it went ok. We didn’t go into anything specific. I told her how stressful my paper was and how I wanted nothing to do with psychology after it. We talked about some classes I am thinking about for next semester. One is the biology course and the other is the gender course. I am also thinking of taking the semester off but I feel like I will be bored shitless if that happens. I need to talk to my advisor.

It was cold in my room so I put on a hoodie. Then my sister told me to fold the laundry and I got hot by bringing the clothes to my niece’s room. Most of the clothes were hers. I only had like six things. I showered yesterday and shaved. I need to buy more toothpaste. I signed up to get the Novavax vaccine for tomorrow so I will get it then if I remember. I also need to get B vitamins as I am out. My meds are ready so will do everything tomorrow.

I read the first few pages that I was supposed to. I was taking a mini break when my laptop went berserk. It started moving my mouse and scrolling the pages. I wasn’t even touching the laptop. It was so weird. That is all the reading so far that I have done. I will finish it later. I did all the stuff that needs to be turned in yesterday. I hope the professor doesn’t give us a lot of stuff this week. It’s a short week because of the holiday. I am not going to look at my grade of my paper until the last day of class. Three more weeks and it will be over. I have an exam the last week of class. The professor said it’s “easy” so it most likely will be hard. There will be a prep of some kind. I’m glad because my mind has been sieve lately. Nothing is being stored.

I don’t know why the fuck they need to stitch the strings of hoodies and sweats into the material. Used to be that you can pull it out but now you can’t. GRRR. Pisses me off. You got to cut it out. I hate the strings anyway. I never use them.

I am so damn tired. Puppy wasn’t around today and I was sad. I have been in a tearful mood since therapy. I don’t know why. I just feel so depressed. I was up during the night for a little bit. I couldn’t sleep. All the things of what I had to read kept me up. I didn’t get up till 11. Had two cups of coffee. I needed caffeine today. I feel like I could go to bed now. I just want to stay in bed. I don’t want to do anything anymore. I feel so numb to the pain. It’s like I am so jaded. My neck is so tense from all the stress. I love Thanksgiving but being around family stresses me out.