midnightdemons7

Slept most of the day

I had a difficult time trying to relax last night and sleep. I was so anxious about school. I felt like I should be doing something but I didn’t know what to do. My bed needs to be cleared off and I thought about throwing everything on the floor. I was so agitated. I finally took some Ativan. It helped me calm down some and I was able to sleep. Then I woke up around 3 to pee. I took some more Ativan to sleep and got up when my alarm went off. I had to meet my psych prof.

The meeting went ok but I am no closer to writing this paper. I have to look up some old issues of the topic. I re-read my psych article and found it has nothing to do with the damn exam. Fucking fuck. She gave us a hypothetical question we are to answer as if I were Jung. Great. I have to get started on it tomorrow. I have no idea where to start.

My new glasses came and I can finally read again without problems. I think they look good on me. If I am up tomorrow morning, I am going to go to the pharmacy and get my meds. I can’t believe I slept all afternoon. It was a good sleep though. I had some play time with the puppy but she didn’t want too much petting. I got to try and get as much school work done between now and Saturday. Fri I have an appt in the late afternoon so I don’t think I will be able to do much work. Sunday my family and I are going apple picking. I have never been before. It will be my first time. I am looking forward to some cider!

Up wicked early

I woke up sometime after 4 to pee and never got back to sleep. Then I started sneezing and it was over. I was up. Around six I got hungry so I went downstairs to make coffee and something to eat. I was in the mood for pancakes. My niece was up getting ready for work. We talked for a bit. Then the puppy came in the kitchen and did her business and promptly left. She was a grump all day. Though she did give me kisses.

I got multiple messages from my Econ professor about career expo and a make up test for test 2. I was happy to hear that. I went over some of the material while I was fresh brained from coffee and then I got confused. Brain fog took over and I have been fighting it ever since. I went over the psych material and it is a lot of reading. I still need to re-read the Jung article and hope it makes sense so I can start a discussion about it for my exam. Apparently the exam is to discuss and then respond to two other students. I would rather have an essay test. It is so hard to respond to another student.

I got another headache today. Tylenol helped and so did a nap. I had a roast beef sandwich for lunch. The puppy was outside while I was eating otherwise she would have wanted some. I have been playing my game and on the news app which I shouldn’t be because it is pissing me off. I am tired. I made a burger for supper. I ordered my drinks that came around 3. I wanted to go to the square to pick up my order but it was too late. I will go tomorrow. I should have went in the morning but I opted to nap instead.

My pcp got back to me about the vision thing. They gave me the number to call for an appt. I will call in the morning. I have to be up early because I am meeting my psych prof to discuss my paper. This week’s thing on the paper is hard because I don’t have a real starting point for my topic. That is what I need to discuss.

Headache abounds

I was up again during the night. It took forever to get back to sleep. I had a few weird dreams. I ended up getting up around noon. I went to go make coffee and there was barely any half and half left and the sugar bowl was empty. I was not happy. I could only have one cup of coffee. It was strong because I didn’t have enough half and half to make it light. After I had my coffee, I went upstairs to work on my bonus paper. The prof who I am convinced is a witch, sent an email saying test 2 was due today. I had myself doubting whether or not I took it. I thought I did but couldn’t remember. I did the paper and sent it in. Not even sure it was right.

I sent a message to my neuro about my peripheral vision being off only to be told my neuro is on maternity leave (I know this) and to contact pcp. I guess they don’t have anyone covering her? Seems odd. I sent the message to my pcp but haven’t heard back. Maybe tomorrow.

I sent a message to my professor about my final paper. She didn’t give me any clarification and just compounded the issue. She wants me to meet with her to discuss. Then she sent me an email saying that I have Jung for the discussion on the exam. OMG. The article she gave talked in fucking circles and I had such a hard time following it. Now I got to read it again. But not tonight because my head might explode.

I went grocery shopping and spent less than I was expecting and got what I needed. Except for fucking sugar because I forgot. I got such a headache before I left. I had this woman in front of me and she just would not fucking move. She just stayed in the way so I kept brushing against her as I was moving my things at the register. She was annoyed. Fuck you. You’re lucky I didn’t hit you with my cart.

I came home and my bitchy sister was in a fucking mood because the puppy peed on the kitchen floor and pooped on the porch. There was also a pile of dishes in the sink. My niece’s ex is sick and was in bed most of the day. He better keep his germs to himself.

I am so tired and I don’t know why. I showered. Tomorrow I need to go to the square and pick up an order I placed for some cereal. I really wanted the dark chocolate with hazelnuts but they were out of stock. That was the whole reason for the order. I am so disappointed. But with all my discounts and things, the cereal only costed me two bucks. I bought milk when I was at the grocery store.

School work all day

Since I got up this afternoon, I have been doing school work. I did all the things in psych. Now I just got to write the paper for my Econ class for extra credit. I found two articles so that was nice.

I woke up during the night. And then I didn’t get up till my med alarm went off. I was supposed to go grocery shopping today but I didn’t get up. My sister is going to take me tomorrow after work.

I feel depressed. My sox lost the other night and I just can’t seem to get on top of things. I got to send a message to my neuro about my peripheral vision being off. I also got to email my psych prof about the final paper as I don’t think I can turn it into a historical question. I am struggling to do this school work. My concentration has taken a hit. I should have started reading one of the books for Econ but I haven’t. I have a month to read it and then do the paper. This month I have to work on the group project. I got to look up what I signed up to do because I don’t remember. There is a Wikipedia page on the guy so that will help. The professor is into PsychINFO for database searches so will be using that. I was using pubmed before. I like psychINFO because it’s just psych stuff instead of medicine.

I love Taylor’s new album. I don’t have a favorite song yet. Album reminds me of Reputation for some reason. I haven’t heard the news about how well or bad it is doing. I did hear from her page that she is doing some acoustic songs and putting them on CDs on her page. I won’t be getting them. I already paid what I paid and I am not paying more than that.

I am so tired. I should sleep good tonight. I have my psych exam this week which the prof said she will make “fun”. We’ll see how that goes. She said this will be in a discussion format. I hate that. I just hope I do well.