midnightdemons7

Feeling shitty

I didn’t sleep last night because of this stupid cold I got. I was coughing and miserable. I finally took some Nyquil around 1am. That helped and I snoozed a bit. I kept having weird dreams. I heard my sister get up for work. I waited till she came back to her room because I had to pee.

I got up really late, too late to go shopping so I asked my sister to take me to the grocery store. I literally bought three things and it was twenty bucks. I couldn’t get the cheese I wanted. I couldn’t find the ground beef so I got burgers. I wanted to make Sloppy Joes so it would last a few days for a few meals at least. Oh well. I didn’t buy Gatorade because I didn’t have the money. I will have to buy it on Friday when my check comes in. I also got to get chamomile tea. I like that when I am sick.

I am so tired. I haven’t eaten anything yet today. I don’t have much of an appetite. I am going to make a burger for dinner. I bought yogurt so I will have that in the morning. This cold is taking all my energy to stay awake.

I went downstairs to see my niece as she was visiting for a few minutes. I haven’t seen her in weeks. My sister that I am ok with said I smell. I took a shower last night so I have no idea how I smell. I didn’t sweat that much. Maybe my shirt does. I don’t know. It has been on my bed for a bit. I still need to change my sheets. Maybe I will do that tomorrow. I have no idea where to put my old laptop. It still works but is slow as fuck. I don’t want to get rid of it because it might have files I need. I am so tired of both my sisters saying I smell all the time.

I protect the family…

I have done nothing all day. I didn’t sleep well last night. I slept kind of late today. The school’s website thing came back online last night so I was forced to look at what this week is going to involve. Not much really, so that is good. I just got to read the two chapters in the book. I will get started with it tonight after my shower.

I took my beard off but didn’t shave. It’s just down to a stubble. I trimmed my mustache and eyebrows. I need to go to the grocery store as I am down to my last Gatorade bottle and only have like half a half gallon of half and half left. I will try and go tomorrow.

The lady at my insurance called me back. I think I accidently deleted her email when she sent it on Friday. Oops. She sent it again and all the therapists are out of my range. They are far away. I guess I will just be waiting for the Cambridge office to call me. In like 4 months. I still got to call the place I was seeing to see if they will still take me or I have to do intake again.

Day off

The school’s website for assignments and things was down most of the day so I decided to have a day off. I had read the webpages in the early morning as I was up and couldn’t go back to sleep. They were boring as hell.

I think I am getting a cold. I have had a cough that keeps making me gag all day. Last night my gallbladder flared up and it was still a little flared this morning. I took it easy eating most of the day. My sister made BBQ chicken and some artichoke thing. The artichoke thing was really salty. I had two pieces of chicken and was full. It was all I ate all day.

I wanted to shower but I ended up taking a nap in the afternoon. I also wanted to take my beard down some and my mustache but didn’t. My mustache hairs are all over the place. I think I got to get a comb or a brush to smooth it out. I fell asleep and woke up with the sweats. It has been warm in my room. I had a hard time getting comfortable last night because I was so warm. But it wasn’t warm enough to turn the fan on.

I got about three weeks before my group project is due. I haven’t started it. I asked the prof where to get resources and she said google, so I will start there tomorrow. I have no idea how long this has to be. I have like two parts I am writing about this psychologist’s life. Thursday I am having a zoom meeting with the group so hopefully that goes well.

I still feel so tired in the afternoon and have to nap. I know I shouldn’t because it is probably what is keeping me up in the middle of the night but I can’t help it. I just get so sleepy. My mood has sucked the past few days. The insurance lady called me but I never called her back. I will try tomorrow. I had a list of people to call today and never did it. I wish I could just email them instead.

I think I am going to take some Nyquil tonight so I am not coughing. I don’t feel sick but I just got phlegm in my throat. It doesn’t hurt or anything. I got no fevers. The nurse at my pcp’s office said that if my gallbladder pain gets worse and I am unable to eat or drink I need to go to the ED. I just wanted a referral for a surgeon so it can be done outpatient. I wanted to avoid the ED all together. Last night it was really bad. I ate different things yesterday so it is hard to say what set it off. It isn’t as bad today. Hope it stays that way.

Football Sunday

My sister had a gathering of friends and neighbors today. I woke up around the time it started. I had some food, a little of everything. I watched the game on my sister’s new TV. It was huge and great color. We won the game and I was in a good mood.

I woke up at 330 because the puppy was crying. I don’t know what her problem was. I didn’t know if my niece or her daddy was home but looks like just the daddy was home. She was missing momma. She is out with her daddy now and I am happy. She needs to be out of the house more. She won’t go out with me because she is skittish. My brother in law wanted to show her to his friends but she ran away when she saw the leash.

I read my text book till about 8am and then I went back to sleep for a bit. The chapter is so long, at least 50 pages. I still have one more chapter to read plus some web pages. I am so tired. I had a cup of coffee after I ate to try and wake up. All it did was make me feel fuller. I don’t know if I am going to get back to the reading or I am just going to skip it and go to the next chapter.

I am still listening to the show girl by Taylor. The songs are repeating in my head every day so I have to listen to the album. I still haven’t decided which song is my favorite. I have played ruin the friendship on repeat a few times. I like that song. Makes me want to reveal to my crush she is my crush. I dance to Opalite all the time. It is such a fun song.