midnightdemons7

School work and stuff

I had a difficult night sleeping due to reflux. My stomach was on fire until I took my reflux pill. Mylanta wasn’t cutting it and I took two doses. I still haven’t moved my bowels. I took Miralax yesterday and still nothing. I thought I might go last night but nothing. I will take another dose of Miralax in the morning. I was finally able to schedule my Covid shot. I thought I scheduled it in the morning, but it is the afternoon so I changed it. I know I will be too tired to go.

I finally was able to do my psych discussion thing. I nearly panicked when I didn’t see more module stuff today then remembered she posts it on Tuesdays. Econ had already posted stuff for the week. I just have the two quizzes and chap 3 to read. I actually need to read chap 2, which I will do on Wed. I finished chap 1 today. It took me a long time to get to it but it only took me like 15 mins to finish. I won’t learn from this.

I didn’t want to meet my DMH worker today so canceled. I was tired and just couldn’t get going today. I didn’t know if she was in the office or at home. We just texted each other. Tomorrow I have an appt with my psychiatrist. It should be a short appt as there is nothing really new to update him on other than my new therapist, which I still don’t have a telephone number for. I will get it this week when I see her. I really like that my therapist isn’t apart of the hospital system where I get my regular care is. I hated that everyone on my team had access to my therapist’s notes. It felt violating.

I might have to see my pcp soon if my CRPS pain doesn’t quiet down. It has been a month now that it has been hurting me every single night. It’s always a different pain. But it is usually either nerve or bone pain that I experience. It is more annoying than anything. Like right now my foot is tingling. It doesn’t help that sometimes I get cramps in my foot that are so damn painful. Sometimes when I put my other foot on top of it will set off the cramps. There is like a spot that just gets annoyed.

Thomas Rhett’s Notice has been running through my head all day. I am listening to his album now. I have all but one of his albums. I have to go through his list and find out which one I am missing. I love his music. He is having another baby. This makes child number 5! He is so blessed. He has four girls right now. Maybe this one will be a boy. We’ll find out soon.

Clusterfuck of a day

I set my alarm for 0730 because my delivery order was to come between 8 and 11. I got a message around 10 saying there was a delay and that I should check the app to see when my delivery would arrive. They said it would arrive between 1055 and 1110. It was already past that so I knew it wasn’t going to happen. I got a $5 credit. Then when the delivery came, I didn’t get what I ordered and I was not happy about it. I complained and got the order refunded. So now I got around $25 in credit to use next time I order. I won’t be ordering my drinks again on that app.

My sister made a corn salsa and I wanted to have some today but she ate the chips I bought. I was not fucking happy. It’s been raining all day and my allergies have been brutal. I keep having to clear my throat from post nasal drip. I will have to take another Allegra tonight. I finally showered and it exhausted me. I literally was in the shower and wanted to cry because I didn’t have the damn energy to dry myself off. I felt so weak. I didn’t even have the shower water temp that hot as it still is kind of warm out. It’s cool today but nothing I need to wear heavy clothes about. I like it when it’s cool. Anyways, I managed to dry myself. I was glad I had brushed my teeth before I showered because there was no way I was going to brush afterwards. I also trimmed my beard and did my eyebrows. They were getting a bit hairy.

I just wanted to nap. I went to have something to eat and all that I had was my pizza I bought the other day. I forced myself to have toast with butter with my coffee. I didn’t really eat yesterday and I was hungry before I went to sleep. I drank an Ensure because I didn’t want to eat something. I actually didn’t want to go downstairs. Didn’t matter though because I had fricken heartburn all night long. My esophagus felt like it was on fire and I had reflux really bad. I want to lose weight so bad but I don’t know if aggravating my GERD is a good idea. I will message my pcp tomorrow about it. I can deal with the gastritis pains but reflux is hard to control.

I haven’t read any school stuff. I started with Econ last night. I read 10 pages. I don’t know why every fricken chapter has to be at least 20 pages or more. Like WTF. I still have 3 pages on my psych. I have to finish that today because I need to answer questions about it and it is due tomorrow. I have done all the assignments for Econ except picking a book for the book assignment. I hope I can get the book at the library so I don’t have to buy it.

My stomach is killing me right now. I have a headache and am super tired. I am also aggravated because who ever did my laundry fucked up my clothes. My Pats shirt melted and another shirt bled. I am not happy! I know I have repeated this but fuck I am so aggravated. I usually just have about four things to wash a week because I usually shower just once a week. That isn’t enough for a load of laundry. I am sure me being aggravated is probably contributing to the stomach upset.