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Between my game and the surveys for the study I am in, I had a hard time getting to sleep last night. Then when I finally decided to turn in, my allergies went haywire. I was sneezing my head off and my eyes were watering. I had to take a benadryl. I would have taken an Allegra but I would take it in a few hours as it was 3am.

Today my cousin is having her lumpectomy. Then I found out my aunt broke her hip and she had surgery last night. I am worried. I was watching the puppy and she wanted nothing to do with me. Every time I got near her she pulled away or hid. She stayed under the bed until her father came home. I kept checking on her to make sure she was OK. She didn’t drink or eat anything. I would have taken her for a walk if she let me. It is much cooler today than it has been all week. I hope the temp stays this way.

I’m feeling frustrated. Bitch sister just came home and bitched. Also called me spoiled by my mother. My mother did not spoil me by any means so I don’t know what she is talking about. Makes me so mad. I finished my drink and left everything the way it was. Fuck her.

I got to go to the Square tomorrow and get my meds. I woke up too late to go today.

Heat wave 2025

My niece started a job today so rather than listen to the dog bark all day in the crate, I took her out. She stayed in her bedroom under the bed all day sleeping. I felt bad because she wasn’t drinking. I was trying to give her ice cubes because it was so hot in that room but she wouldn’t take them.

Last night, I broke out in a rash on my wrist from the fitbit. I thought it would be gone in the morning but it wasn’t. I have it on my other wrist and it is so weird to me. I am not used to it. I have been feeling down most of the day. I don’t do well in hot weather. It hit over 100 degrees today. I didn’t go out. I ordered my groceries to be delivered. They didn’t have my Marie Calendar’s country fried chicken or my burgers. I did get burgers but they were humungous. I had to cut them in half as they were way too thick. They didn’t taste good either. I needed to season them. They were quite plain, more plain than I expected. I finally got my Ben and Jerry’s ice cream. I only did a small shopping. It still came out to be like 80 bucks. I am hoping next week I can do the bigger shopping and get the things I need.

I confirmed my appt with the bottom surgeon. I also was finally able to get a hold of my therapist and make an appt with her. Unfortunately, it isn’t for two weeks. I am not happy about this. She is booked and then she is off next week. Grrrr. I sent her an email. I hope she doesn’t lose it.

It was fun taking care of the puppy today. I just wish it was cooler so we could have possibly gone for a walk or outside in the yard for a bit. But it was too hot. She wasn’t having none of the heat but didn’t want to be in the cooler room with the AC and fan for some reason. I tried to get her in my room but she wouldn’t come. Funny when she isn’t supposed to go, she goes but when I called her, she wouldn’t. silly dog.

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I had a toothache after eating some ice cream and it kept me up. I couldn’t sleep. I finally took some ibuprofen and it calms it down but I was still up. I didn’t fall asleep until after 6am. I don’t know what time I got up. I didn’t have enough half and half for two coffees. I was upset. I took some half and half from my sister downstairs. It is so damn hot in the house. I managed to shave and shower. I then rested for a bit.

I sat in the kitchen and sweated my ass off as I drank my coffee. I had something to eat and decided I wanted pasta salad so made some pasta. I have it cooling off. The puppy just took a big dump in the kitchen and it reeks so I left for my room. I am cooling off as I listen to my country playlist. I feel really bad for some reason. I fear that all this sitting around is going to be detrimental to my health. It’s too hot in the house to walk around and way too hot to go for a walk outside. Tomorrow I need to pick up my meds. It’s going to be 100 degrees. I am going to turn into a raisin.

For the first time since being home, I have thought about ending it again. I didn’t have urges to do so but I thought about it. The heat drives me crazy. I want to escape from it. I hate that I have to stay in my room in order to stay cool. Not looking forward to going out tomorrow but I need to get my meds and do some grocery shopping. One of my meds is currently out of stock. Hope it comes in but I can hold off a day. It’s my migraine med. This week will be two shots, T and migraine med. Fun. The good news is that I can order my groceries and then pick them up. I don’t have to go around the store to get the items I need. That will save some spoons.