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Sunday scaries

I had a dream last night that I had missed a lot of class and was trying to get to class but didn’t have the book with me. By the time I got the book, the class was over. I felt bad. In the dream, I was hospitalized for psych. My mother was in it too. I am surprised I didn’t get a headache when I woke up.

I did the meds for the week. I am starting a new supplement for migraines. I hope it works. I asked my neuro about it and she said it is good. We’ll see how it works out.

I need to read my book today. I don’t like it. I finished my Italian homework yesterday. I had to email the professor to see what I was doing wrong. I was all confused. Quiz is next week. I hope I do better this time around or I will have to change to pass/fail for the class.

I am talking to my DMH worker tomorrow. We had to switch days a bit. I like talking to her. She is really supportive. It is still cold in my room. I had taken off my long sleeve shirt to brush my teeth and didn’t put it back on. I got to get ready soon. It’s my brother in law’s birthday today. We are going to a bar. Should be fun. My niece isn’t going to be there because she has to work. I wanted to get pics of her and my older niece. Maybe some other time.

I have therapy this week. I don’t know if it will be in person yet. Depends on how Tues goes for me. I need to stop in the local bookstore and pick up the books I bought. I want to see the new location as they moved. I don’t know how far away it is from the station. It’s been a while since I have been in that part of Mass Ave.

I just weighed myself. I am down four pounds. I haven’t been eating the past few days. Just small meals. Last night, I just made tater tots. I should take out the chicken so I can have dinner for tomorrow night. If we have BBQ sauce, I will make it with that. Otherwise I will just roast it with some potatoes. I have a cake I have been meaning to make. Maybe I will make it tomorrow. I like making things when my sister isn’t home because she always bitches at me.

My Sox lost again last night. I fell asleep listening to the game. I woke up to basketball on the app. I shut it off and then went back to sleep. I woke up around 1am and realized I didn’t plug in my phone. I was glad I woke up or my phone would have been dead in the morning. I just had one cup of coffee so far today. Game is on at 2 today. New pitcher is on, though I can’t remember if he came out late during last season or not.

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I don’t know what I am doing in my Italian class. I emailed the professor and he said I am confusing the tenses. I did the best I could. I did the discussion piece. I just got finished with it.

I barely slept last night. I don’t know why. I am so tired. It was raining off and on today and it has been really cold. My sister shut the heat off so it’s really cold in my room. I wanted to leave the house today but couldn’t get myself together enough to do it. Maybe Monday.

The felon is going after California to out transgender students. Only a matter of time before he comes to my state. I am so fucking scared. I want to die. The stress is killing me.

My feet keep cramping and I don’t know why. It hurts. My feet are cold so that doesn’t help. Ballgame is on soon. I plan on listening. Last night they lost. I ended up turning it off after the 5^th inning. They were already losing and I knew they weren’t going to win the game. Devers hasn’t gotten a hit yet. And I guess he will no longer be playing third base. He will be the DH. I hope I can listen to at least the 6^th inning tonight. Game is an hour earlier so I hope so.

Blah and depressed

I slept really late today. I didn’t feel like go to class today. I thought about going to the language lab but didn’t have the energy to get up. I have been in a funk all day. I got nothing accomplished. I did manage a shower.

It’s Opening Day. I listened to the game for a little while. They won. I should be happy but I am so depressed. I am so stressed out about school. My anxiety just is bad. I am going to text my therapist. The radical acceptance stuff isn’t helping me.

I’ve been playing my game on and off all day. It’s been helping me keep distracted but there are tasks I keep forgetting to do. Like stuff for the house goods needs stuff from the plastics. I create a thing and then forget to do the other thing. I just harvested some eggs and forgot what I need to make with it. I don’t care. I don’t have the concentration like I usually have today.

I showered but didn’t shave my head. I don’t know if I am going to or not. I kind of like how it is, all buzzed off. I need to have my cousin trim my neck hair in the back. I tried to do it and ended up scratching myself.