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Light in August

I started my 3^rd book in my English class at like 5 this morning. I woke up at midnight and there was no way I was going back to sleep. I ordered breakfast and then read for about an hour. I didn’t read as much as I should have. I should be more than half way through the book but I am wicked tired. The professor has posted notes on the shared drive for this book.

I haven’t done anything today except spend money. But it was for needed things. I needed half and half. I didn’t want to buy just one thing so I bought some breakfast burritos and the chicken breast was on sale so I got that. And the eggs were cheaper at this store than the other one I was going to order from so I got those, too. Tomorrow I will make roast chicken and potatoes. I hope I make the potatoes just right like last time. It was so good, I ate them all in one sitting.

I still need to shower. It’s been more than a week. Luckily, I haven’t been around my sisters to tell me I stink. I know I do. I don’t need someone telling me. I plan on taking one after I blog. I got my clothes ready. I haven’t decided if I am going to shave or not. Or take off the goatee and grow beard. I’ll decide tomorrow. I just need to focus on showering. That is my goal. And to brush my teeth.

I was hoping to read more of the book today but so far I haven’t. If I am not completely exhausted after my shower, I might read a few more pages. It’s a longer book than the other two were. I honestly don’t know if I will catch up. I got stuff going on this week, therapy and seeing my DMH worker, who I didn’t see Friday because I had a migraine. So I made the appointment for this week. I can’t blow her off again. I also need to get blood work done for school. I got an email saying they need my immunization records and TB test. The immunization record they have for the patient website is not complete. I had to contact employee health for it. I had to sign a release and had to figure out how to fucking do it without printing it out and signing it. Took me a while. I was so aggravated. I signed up for PDF convert for nothing. I will stop it before the end of the week. It’s nice to have though.

I took my night meds. I hope I sleep tonight. I am not going to bed early. I did that too many times and I always wake up around midnight or 1am, sometimes even 1130pm and then I am up all fricken night. I tried to go back to sleep but I couldn’t. I took an Ativan but I just wasn’t sleepy. I am going to try a trazodone tonight. Sometimes it works when I am sleep deprived and sometimes it doesn’t. We’ll see which way it works.

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I’ve spent the day working on my English paper. I woke up at 2am and couldn’t sleep so worked on it until I was sleepy. I kept trying to think of what to write and nothing was coming to me. I kept taking breaks and then writing a few sentences but not really getting into a groove.

I have been in a mood all day. I really didn’t want to talk to anyone and stayed off social media. I lied down for a bit. I am so tired. If I can just write another page or so, I will be good and turn this sucker in. I am still thinking about therapy and what to do.

I slept in later than I wanted to. I think I will be going to be soon. I don’t think I can finish this fucking paper. I just want to put my head down.