Trending and other stuff

Woke up from a weird dream about cooking steaks. So, I had a bowl of cereal when I woke up. Not the same thing but at least I had something in my stomach. I haven’t been eating good the last few days. I just have had no appetite. I just have been having one or two meals a day but mostly just one. I am not that hungry.

I really have decided that when my royalty money comes in from my book selling, I am going to treat myself to a nice restaurant that sells steaks. A friend of mine, who I went to dinner the other night, suggested the Longhorn Steakhouse. Now I just have to find one that is close to me. I am a carnivore!

I still have been in a deep depression. I haven’t emailed my psychiatrist about it. I don’t want to worry her. I still think that I should be on an antidepressant but I am hoping that the depression lifts soon. Even though I feel kind of hopeless, I still am trying to hang on to a little bit of hope that things will get better. It is so difficult to do that though when you feel so crappy.

I woke up really early today, thanks to that weird dream. Today, my sister is having a party for my niece as her birthday was this week. I really don’t feel like attending, mostly because I know people will ask about my book and stuff and I really don’t want to talk about it. But I will make an appearance like I always do and hope for the best that there will be little interaction with me. Otherwise, I will just go to my room and stay there.

I wrote my therapist a letter about not wanting to talk about my book anymore and have tried to cancel my appointments for next week. I didn’t get a response so I am not sure they are canceled or not. I guess I will find out on Tuesday.

I just checked on my copies that are supposed to be shipped to me. Looks like I will be getting the books much earlier than I thought. That is good. Now I can ship out at least one or two books and my friend in England can have a birthday present from me. She is sending me paper money for the cost of shipping. Other than Euros, I never had any other currency before. She will be sending me a £5 note. I am so excited about getting this as it is new to me. I always wanted to visit England. Maybe one day I will.

I have not been able to get in touch with my best friend from childhood. I want to let him know that I published a book but I keep getting his voicemail. I will try again tonight.

There has been a trending statement floating on my Facebook page about this guy Donald Sterling. Apparently, he is racist, as he doesn’t want “black people at his game”. He is the owner of the NBA team the LA Clippers. Maybe he hasn’t noticed but the majority of NBA players are black!! It’s so stupid that at this day and age that people are still against the black race, or any race for that matter. I just don’t understand it. It I really sad that this is still going on. And the fact that it is “trending” just makes it worse because that means more people are aware of this. If I lived in LA, I would boycott the team. But then, I am not really a huge basketball player anymore. I used to be back when Larry Bird was playing. Since he retired, I haven’t seen much of the game. It has no interest for me anymore, mostly because the Celtics sucks. Since he retired, there has only been one championship since 1986. That is a long time. And this season, they didn’t make it to the playoffs. Kind of sad that they made a new Garden and their team sucks.