Kind of off topic

I know my blog has mostly covered how I feel and my self-destructive thoughts. But tonight I can’t sleep. I keep thinking about my beloved Sox. They have traded there pitchers that I like to other teams. I know they have had a sucky season and most likely will not make the playoffs. I am really depressed because the two best pitchers on the team are now gone. They might as well be a AAA team now (for those that don’t know baseball, that means being a minor league team, below professional level). I can’t stand to watch the rest of the season.

The worse part is that I can’t talk to anyone about this. I am in the hospital. I can’t tell them I am upset because of a sports team. They will really think I am nuts. I could call my friend but he is on his way to Atlanta for a convention. He will most like be upset as me, but not to the degree that his heart is breaking.

I love my baseball team and it hurts to see them suck. But I know next season will be better than this year.  I know I will watch a game or two even though I have said I won’t. It will be difficult but hopefully the young pitchers will do ok. I am glad they did get rid of Buchholz. He is one of my favorites, too.