saturday blog 11122021

Saturday Blog 11122021

My med alarm went off and I shut if off but didn’t take my meds. I went back to sleep. I got up around 12 and took them. Then I made something to eat and had two cups of coffee. I am really tired today and my legs feel like lead. It’s raining so I won’t be going to the grocery store. My brother in law bought the milk for us and then my mother asked where the eggs were. She didn’t tell me to get eggs.

I sent a text to my BFFL and he responded. He told me he is on meds and my heart broke. It is killing me seeing him hurt this much. We are going to try and get together next week. I hope it happens. I haven’t seen him since my father’s wake. It will be good to see him again, maybe even see his kid. He called me and we talked. I miss him so much.

I need to shower. It has been almost a week since I last took one. I am afraid to take one when I am this tired because I tend to get out of breath easily. It takes so much effort to shower. People don’t realize it until they are sick. I used to tell my psych all the time how much energy it took for me to get ready and she didn’t really believe me until she was recovering from a broken hip.

I have to set an alarm today for cathing because I have no urge to go. Yesterday I was going like every 2 to 3 hours. Sometimes I had to void because I had a strong urge to go. Just sucks that every day is different than the day before. I have been having bladder pain the past few days and I am trying really hard to resist the urge to check my urine for infection again.

Gonna go take a shower and wear my new PJs and Red Sox shirt. I don’t have to bother shaving because I am letting my hair grow out, least until I get it cut again.