would you still like me when I am nothing new?

Would you still like me when I am nothing new

I am feeling really tired today. It took a lot to get out of bed. I had to pick up my meds and drop off what I made to my barber. I wasn’t expecting it to be cold and rainy today. My back acted up. I could barely straighten out and walk. I made coffee and then I brushed my teethed and shaved. I was up for only an hour before I left the house and already I wanted to just go back to bed to sleep.

I was expecting to feel better when I left the house but with each step, things got harder. I rested at the bus stop. My barber had a customer when I got there. I should have brought a book with me but I wasn’t thinking that far ahead. I got my meds and then went to Starbucks for my coffee and something to eat. They have this potato, sausage, bacon, egg and cheese wrap that is really good. I rested while I ate it. It took everything I had to make it back home. I stopped at the store to get some new soap. I need a shower but it won’t be today.

My shower mat finally got delivered today. I hope it isn’t the size of the box because it will be smaller than it needs to be. I haven’t opened the box yet. I will do it tomorrow. I need to rest as I am wicked tired. My CRPS foot is acting up. I might have to take pain meds early today. I am hoping with some rest my pain settles down. I tried putting shit in the kitchen away but my legs were hurting me so much. I still haven’t folded my clothes that I washed the other day.

I have been having some chest discomfort the past few days. It feels like something heavy is on me. I sent a message to my pcp about it. I think it is just post op stuff. I am six months post op as of yesterday. My ribs are also hurting me. I don’t know why today I am in so much fucking pain. I just want to nap.