clusterfuck

Clusterfuck

I had a shitty night of weird dreams and headaches. I woke up at like 3 with my head splitting. I took some meds and was able to get back to sleep only to wake up a few hours later with the same bullshit. I am so fucking tired. I had an appointment with my pcp and we discussed this. She is going to send a note to my psychiatrist and neuro about this. I don’t know what more I can do but I am like a fucking infant needing to sleep every few hours. I was up at 11 and by 2 I was ready to nap. I was fighting sleep so hard. I rested for about twenty minutes before my appointment time. She is going to check my iron levels as they haven’t changed much since last lab draw. She is also ordering a stool test for colon cancer. I poop in a bucket and then mail off my stool. I don’t have any risk factors for it. She is only doing the test because I have met the age requirement. Fun. Another year older and now I have all these tests. I just got a provider letter saying I am due for my mammogram. Um….someone needs to update the computer as I no longer have any breast tissue.

I had a window where I was clearheaded enough to write. I tried adding to the document I am working on for family acceptance of me being trans. I wanted to get at least 1000 words. I am at 627. 400 words to go.

I am feeling really tired and cranky. My stomach has been bothering me all day. I have no idea why. I gave it food and it hurts more now. I just had coffee. I had a cup with my black bean burger. I wanted to shower but never got around to it. I hate that I have been up for about six hours and feel the need to go to bed when it’s only 630pm. Like WTF. It rained most of the day today and tomorrow has a 40% chance of it. I hope it doesn’t because I need to go out. I am going to try and go to UMB and get my ID done. I also want to see where the class will be. It’s on the first floor but it is a building I am not familiar with.

I did the laundry today as the hamper was overflowing. It’s cold in my room. I might put a long sleeve shirt on if the temp drops. I just don’t want to be too hot as I sweat so much. I hope I sleep tonight or I will not be able to do anything tomorrow.