two buses for groceries

Two buses for groceries

I was up half the night again. I just couldn’t sleep. I got hungry so had a bagel at like 4am. I figure I would be up. I had taken a trazodone but it didn’t work. After I ate, I felt sleepy and slept most of the morning. I had to go to the grocery store because I needed half and half and I wanted steak. I didn’t want to go to two stores. The store that is two miles away has a better meat selection than the one down the street from me. I had to take two buses to get there. It would have been easier if I had a car. It took me an hour and a half to spend five minutes for three items that came to twenty bucks. Meat and cream is expensive. I also bought a bottle of steak sauce as I am out.

My sister had sent a text about leftovers. I said I would eat it but by the time I got up, my niece had thrown it away. I thought I would have potato salad but it was thrown out as well. There was chocolate cake so I had that. I need to rest before I cook the steak. I am wicked tired. I still need to finish the article for class. There are questions I need to answer. I am just having trouble with the material itself because I came from a low Socio-economic level growing up.

I don’t have ANY regrets about top surgery but this chest pain that I feel every day sucks. I don’t know if it is because I didn’t build muscle or it is the loss of muscle. Whatever the cause, I am in pain every day and I have to take the Robaxin around the clock in order for the pain to be controlled. It’s the only thing that helps it. I am in a very depressed mood today. I feel useless and worthless. It took all my energy to go out today. Someone has been using my half and half so I needed to get some more or I wouldn’t have any for tomorrow. Coffee has motivated me to go out. At the grocery store I went to today, there was a Starbucks. I thought about getting something but my funds are running low. If I got something today, I wouldn’t be able to get anything for tomorrow before class.

I was hoping to shave and shower today but I just don’t have the energy. It took a lot to just go to the store and I still need to make dinner. I hope I can be up early tomorrow and be able to shave and shower before I leave for class. Yesterday I left a little later than I did last week and I still was a half hour early so I don’t have to leave so early for class but I do have to be up before 11.