waste of spoons

Waste of spoons

I had to get up soon after my med alarm went off because I was meeting with my professor on zoom. I managed to have a cup of coffee before the meeting. My biscuits came in so I had some with the coffee. It was so good to have them again. The meeting went well. She was interested in suicidology and I told her about my research stuff. We went over my paper and it’s all review so I can look at different things. We briefly talked about the build a brain and I looked it up on the website and my heart sank. I have to come up with more than a few structures of the brain, like 50 or so. I am overwhelmed. My niece is going to help me.

I had another cup of coffee and something to eat and then I got dressed because I had to go to the bank for a banking issue. I got there and seems like nope, I just had to do it on the browser not the app. Well that would have been fucking dandy had they explained that on the website or mobile device! I wasted my energy (spoons) doing this. I was so mad. I wanted something sweet but there was really no place I could go and I really didn’t know what I wanted. I just went home and made the bus which was almost pulling out of the station.

I replaced the new headphones that I lost/misplaced. They came this morning. Thank you amazon. I had music while I went out. I have been listening to ALL my music rather than one artist or a group of artists. It’s been nice because there has been music I haven’t heard in years. I miss hearing Gary Allen and Garth Brooks. I came home and I was a sweaty mess. I had another cup of coffee. I plan on having the last of the Shepard’s pie for supper. I need to finish the chapter in my textbook and read the discussion article today.

I am tired and got another headache brewing. I got a ton of pressure in my head right now. I don’t know if it will be a headache or a migraine. I still have just one migraine pill left until Monday when I can refill it. I just sent all my refills for my meds today. I was out of refills on one of my meds so had to send it to my doc for it. I should be able to get them tomorrow or Friday. Friday I need to go to social security. I need to get my ass up early and go. I will bring my book with me so I can read while I wait. I see my DMH worker who is up the street from the office. I just hope it is a nice day and doesn’t rain. Today is nice. It’s cool but not cold. I can still wear short sleeves but I can’t wear shorts. It’s a little too cool for it. It’s nice fall weather. I love it.