what a day

What a day

I ordered groceries yesterday and I forgot how tiring it is to haul them upstairs by myself. I was supposed to have therapy this morning but my therapist was sick and canceled. Today is my mother’s passing anniversary. It has been a roller coaster of a day. I was feeling kind of okay in the morning. Then I was doing exercise by going up and down stairs for like two hours. Each time I would bring something up, I had to rest because I got out of breath. I mostly did one trip down and up so it was taking forever. I am so mad that the potatoes I bought were not good. I had to get a credit on them. They smelled awful.

My sisters went to the cemetery. I didn’t want to go because I was waiting for my delivery. I ordered Chinese food in honor of my mother. It came right as the groceries came so I didn’t eat right away. The food was still warm when I put all the perishable stuff away. Then the bitch came home and called me an addict because of how many powerade I bought. I didn’t buy any last month because I couldn’t afford them so I got plenty this time to last me. I had been drinking water but I can’t take water with my meds all the time. I hate the taste of the pills, especially the supplements.

I tried not to let her get to me but she did. I was so mad. I wish she would mind her fucking business. My cousin called right when she was bitching and I was kind of angry at him. I should have just sent it to voicemail. He is a pain in the ass sometimes.

I am so fucking tired. I tried resting or napping and neither happened. My phone blew up while I was trying to rest. I had woken up in the middle of the night. I had to pee but I refused to get up. I finally did when my med alarm went off and I had to get up for therapy but she canceled soon after I got up. It’s been a long day for me. I wanted to do my Italian but I had such brain fog I couldn’t concentrate. I still don’t know the expressions they use and how to use them. I got to take the quiz tomorrow. I was hoping my brain would clear up enough that I could work on at least the homework. I will try and do that later. I wish someone was home to help me with the groceries. It always takes me so long to do it by myself.