I got out of the house today

I got out of the house today

After a disastrous night last night, my cousin took me out grocery shopping today. I didn’t have enough money to get all that I wanted but got what I could. I had to pay the copay for the weight loss drug because YAY it got approved on appeal. I start taking it tomorrow.

After the grocery store, I wanted a latte so I went to Starbucks before I went to the pharmacy. I had something to eat as I didn’t have breakfast. I didn’t sleep last night. I maybe got a few hours in the morning before my alarm went off. It was so hard getting up and I felt like complete shit. I was still feeling depressed. It was hot out but not humid, thank god. I was still sweating as I was walking to the bus stop. My legs felt wobbly as I haven’t been out of the house in more than a week. But it felt good to be out. If I didn’t feel so tired when I came home, I would have taken the puppy for a walk.

I have therapy tomorrow so I hope I get some sleep. The latte energized me and I forgot there was no game tonight so I had 6 shots of espresso for nothing. I will just read something. Or play my game. There is an FTM meeting tonight that I might attend. It’s on zoom. I have had a slight headache all day. It started last night after the argument. I felt so suicidal last night it was so hard not to attempt again. Like everything my sister ever said came out to me. She hasn’t spoken to anyone today. Good because I don’t want to talk to her anyways.

I made a burger for supper but I didn’t cook it enough and there was a bone in it. I didn’t finish it because even though I was squishing it, it didn’t lose shape. It was pretty thick and all that meat was making me feel sick. I had so many cramps today and now my side is hurting again. I don’t know if it is muscle or my gallbladder. I have to lay down for a bit until it stops hurting.