fucking exhausted

Fucking exhausted

I slept for about four hours and then woke up around 2am and been up since then. I turned in my paper. It was short and I didn’t care. Then I read the rubric that the professor posted and it will be a miracle if I get a C minimum on it. I woke up and realized I didn’t write a conclusion so I am going to be taken points off that. I wanted to write an email to the professor and cry but I didn’t.

I went to what I thought would be a nursing appt ended up being a meeting with the NP. My blood pressure was high. She asked what I was running at home and I told her I haven’t been taking it the last few days so I am not sure. She said to write it down and in two weeks we’ll check it again. We went up on one of my blood pressure meds. The hope is to restart the other one in two weeks, slowly. I can also restart the weight loss drug. She sent it in but it needs a prior authorization. No matter as I can’t afford it now anyways. It will have wait till next week when I get paid.

Fuck, my niece’s ex is smoking pot on the back porch and I can smell it. I hate the smell of pot. I am so fucking cranky. But the puppy is home. I missed her. I really could have used her as pet therapy yesterday. I was so stressed out.

I did all that needed to be turned in for today. Now I just got to read and read till my eyes fall out. I got one more Freud lecture and then it is all textbook. I am behind at least two chapters, which will take me at least two days to go through. Exam two will be in two weeks. And then class will be over. I am not sure we will have a final. I don’t think so but I could be wrong. I took some Ativan so I can get some sleep. I just had dinner and am so full. I had sliders and some chips and the chips were so yummy. Then I had ice cream.

Only thing to do the rest of the week is school work. I also need to go to the grocery store for some half and half. I am running low. I also got to get some squash for next week. I am going to see if I can get it frozen so the fresh squash doesn’t go bad as it will be a week old if I buy it Thurs.