today’s events 09122025

Today’s events 09122025

I didn’t sleep last night. I just couldn’t stop thinking about stupid things. I ended up staying in bed till 1ish. My coffee filter came so I put it together. I threw the old pieces out and when I went to put the filter on, I realized I threw the piece I needed away. I had to search through the trash to find it. Ugh. I had my coffee but I didn’t eat anything. I wasn’t really hungry though I was thinking of the casserole all day.

I had my meeting with my psychiatrist who was on time. Usually he is late by at least ten minutes. We talked and I asked him if there was something we can do about the depression and he said let him think about it. But my blood pressure needs to be more controlled. I messaged my pcp because all week my BP has been high. They want to see it trend. Ugh. So another week of recording the readings I guess.

I took a nap after the meeting. I was just so tired. I needed to read the one article for class so I can take the exam and haven’t done it yet. I plan to after this blog. I don’t know if I will take the exam today or tomorrow. Depends on how much the article takes from me. It is 13 pages. It should take me an hour or so to get through.

I had the casserole for dinner. I had two helpings, the second one was a little smaller than the first. I really hadn’t eaten anything all day. I had some yogurt afterwards as a dessert as my niece ate my cookies. I need to drink more water as I haven’t really been drinking today. My throat feels dry because of the heat. It’s so cold out and the wind doesn’t help. I got to go out tomorrow and pick up my meds. I think I will go to the library too and then maybe to the restaurant I like in the Square for some pizza. I will just have one slice because they are huge.

I played with the pup but she wasn’t having any of it. She was being moody because her mom isn’t home. I usually stay with her when I am home but today I really couldn’t because I was in bed most of the day. I just feel depressed and knowing I am out of medication options isn’t helping my mood. It will be a while before therapy helps me, if it does. I could do TMS but I have to go to the hospital for it. It is also like four days a week therapy. I’d have to read the studies to see how effective it is. I forgot as it has been so long.