fucking emotions all over the place

Fucking emotions all over the place

I woke up before 9. I tried to get more sleep but I couldn’t so got out of bed around 10. I had my coffee and a breakfast sandwich. I used a creamer instead of sugar so I couldn’t finish the coffee. I didn’t finish the sandwich either. I was on social media or my game until therapy. I was feeling kind of down. Therapy we talked about a little of everything so my emotions were all over the place. I miss my puppy. She is with her daddy right now. I hope he brings her home soon.

I had lunch after therapy and then I made another cup of coffee. For some reason, it didn’t taste right so I didn’t finish it. I used sugar this time. I think I am over this brand of coffee and need to find a new one. It’s hard to find one that I like that doesn’t cost a lot. I had every intention to go out and pick up my meds today but then I laid down and got a migraine. That was the end of going out. It was too bright for me to go out. The sun hurt my eyes. I didn’t get the migraine on the usual side of my head. I got it on my left side. I hate when it switches sides on me. As I was lying down, I got an anxiety attack with palpitations again. This is the third time this has happened in the last few days. I sent a message to my psychiatrist. We’ll see if he responds. I am not hopeful.

There is going to be rain and storms the rest of the week. The storm that was 70% for Thurs is now 100%. That is going to be fun walking in it. I hope I catch it in between downpours and there isn’t flash flooding. My head will be exploding the rest of the week. My allergies have been off the rocker today. I used Flonase to try and break up the post nasal drip but it didn’t do much good. My nose is so itchy. Pollen count is medium. My sinuses have been feeling it too which doesn’t help my headache.

I have been moody most of the day. I sat with my sister tonight after she got home from work. It helped. We talked about random things. She asked if I wanted to go to a Sox game and I said I was boycotting them because of what they did to my “hubby”. I still miss him. I don’t think I will be listening to the game tonight as I am wicked tired and the game doesn’t start until 940pm. They are on the west coast right now. I follow them because they are my team and I love them still even though they kill me sometimes. They have been doing much better the past month and I hope it continues.