Lousy day with yet another migraine
I woke up with a killer migraine and didn’t sleep so great. I got about two hours and then woke up around 4 to pee. My head was still killing me and so was my foot and ankle. Around 1 I took pain meds. If I was going to be up, I might as well be in less pain. I couldn’t really sleep anyway. I was hurting too much between my head and foot.
I had my meeting with my psychiatrist. I told him I didn’t want to be alive anymore because the CRPS was out of remission. He asked if I needed additional support and I told him no. I was too busy to be admitted somewhere. It would only disrupt my studies. He said he did the paperwork so he could talk to my therapist.
Because I feel so lousy, I won’t be getting extra credit for going to a lecture tonight. I was really looking forward to it but I slept all afternoon with Honey. I feel so shitty. I told my psychiatrist it was tough trying to do all the schoolwork. My grades aren’t so bad right now but can get worse if these damn migraines don’t go away.
I got a message from my neuro that this would be the last steroid pack given and that other options will need to be tried if this continues. I realized I don’t have an appt with her so I responded to the nurse. Never got a response back. Fuck. I will call tomorrow.
I see my advisor tomorrow to get the hold off my acct. I will be registering for my 400 level psych course and another history class with the same professor. Unfortunately, the classes are spread out 4 days a week, so I will be on campus M-Th. Class time is roughly the same. I will be taking Principles of Psychotherapy for my psych class. I hope it will be fun. I am just taking the American history class because I love history. I just wish my mind was more open to it and kept the things I learned. Fucking brain, man. Maybe I am too old for this.
