A day of rest
I got up kind of late. I had something to eat and then I had some coffee. I then slept the afternoon away. I had a dream I was trying to get ready for work but couldn’t find things like my badge and sneakers. I also dreamt I went to my cousin’s place in Pepperill and was by the water with boats. Which is completely made up as there is no water near that town. They did have a swimming pool but it wouldn’t have boats.
I played with Honey until she didn’t want to anymore. She is so funny. I love her so much. I have therapy tomorrow. My therapist sent me a list of things to do to feel better. It was a list we worked on together last week. It has been a year we have been working together. She is a good therapist. She tries her best to help me. I don’t know if it is doing any good. I am still depressed though I am less suicidal these days except when I am in a lot of pain from the CRPS. I don’t think about a lot of stuff like I used to. I guess it doesn’t matter about things that happened in the past. Since having top surgery, I have been feeling like myself, whatever that looks like. It is hard spending day after day being suicidal and then not being it one day and then the day after that.
Tomorrow I am going to work on my history homework so I don’t have to do it over the weekend. I was able to talk to one of the networking instructors yesterday before I left the career fair. I had some questions about the interview thing we have to submit as our last homework assignment. I have to do my resume. I think I will need some help in getting it done. There is a place on campus where I can get it done. I have to ask one of my classmates about it as her presentation was on it. Thursday I see my DMH worker but I should be able to do my gender studies work. If not, I can definitely do it Friday. I am glad there is no class tomorrow because of Veteran’s day.
Even though I slept all day today, I am feeling tired. I think I am going to read my Neurosis book before bed. I miss having a baseball game to listen to.
