Author: Midnight Demon

Freezing Friday

I didn’t sleep well because the wind was howling last night. I got a migraine and it was really bad. I was up for a couple of hours. I almost overslept my appointment. I got up a half hour to spare. I didn’t have time to make a cup of coffee, though. The appointment went well. She switch the preventative migraine med and is changing the anti-convulsant med to Depakote. I tried to get the med delivered but for some reason, I couldn’t. I can’t start the Depakote right away. I have to have some blood work done first. I also will be decreasing the Topamax. It hasn’t done anything for my headaches. I gave it a good run though.

After the appointment, I grabbed my mug, some coffee, my half and half and went downstairs to my sisters. I had coffee with her. We talked for a bit. It was nice. She was home as she needed to take time off of work. I guess she has to take time off or she loses it. I still have a headache.

I got a response from my professor. I can skip this week’s discussion. I am glad. It is too technical for my brain. I really tried to answer the questions but this headache is making it impossible. I had a meeting with my DMH worker. I told her I got a therapist appointment. She was happy about that. She asked about Thanksgiving. I told her I am probably not going to be happy as it’s over my aunt’s house and she doesn’t make food like my mom does. I actually don’t like her cooking. She tends to add stuff that shouldn’t be in stuff. I am going to bring gin and tonic and a can of cranberry sauce. Maybe a pie too.

I roasted a chicken breast for supper. It was good. I had pumpkin eggnog with it. It was good but not as good as the one I bought before. It just tasted like pumpkin. The other one tasted like a pumpkin pie.

The wind has stopped blowing but it is still cold in my room. I don’t mind it. It is in the 60s so I can handle it. If it was in the 50s, I would be turning on the heat. I have a long sleeve shirt on and another blanket on the bed. I got to take the AC out next weekend. I think the days of it being in the 70s are over.

Some good news

I got an email this morning from my professor that her kid was sick and she would be having class via zoom today. I was glad I didn’t have to miss class. Though while she was talking about an important topic, the therapist place called. I was placed with a therapist! I have an appointment in the beginning of December. It’s in the morning and I hope I can get up early to make it as it is at 10am. The rest of the class went well. Tues is going to be on zoom as well for Thanksgiving break as some students are traveling. I am glad.

I have been dealing with headache all day today. I woke up a few times with it, some of it due to dreams and other times just because my head was hurting and I had to go pee. I tried to work on the discussion but it is wicked technical and the last two questions I just can’t answer with my head hurting. I can’t seem to come up with an answer as my brain can’t process the jargon. I hate this because I’ve had all week to do stuff and these headaches are preventing me from doing it. I am seeing the neuro tomorrow morning. Hope she can help.

My coffee machine broke yesterday. I was not happy. I went to my sister’s today for coffee. I just had one cup. I talked to my sister today and she wanted to upgrade her machine so I will have hers. I don’t have to buy another one. I am fine with that.

Having a bad day. I met with my professor who corrected my exam while I saw her. I did better than exam 1 but the stupid build a brain i did horrible on so those two thing knocked my grade a full letter grade down. I’ve been depressed all day. Then I found out my Keurig is broken. I had to go to my sister’s to get coffee. My cousin took to me the grocery store. I bought some ground beef to make sloppy Joes and they had pumpkin eggnog. I bought half and half.

I called the therapy place and they still are using my deadname, the fuckers. Anyways, since I turned them down, they have no idea when a slot will be available. Just great.

After I came home from shopping, I went to Starbucks to do some school work for more caffeine. I worked on my citations and read the article for this week’s discussion. I also told the professor I won’t be going to class tomorrow as getting home took more than two hours yesterday. I was so fucking grumpy. I didn’t want to go to class but did anyway and it was a nightmare trying to get home. Not going through that tomorrow.

I have a wicked headache. This is the 6th day of the same headache. I sent a message to my neuro but got no response. I see her Fri. I haven’t taken anything because I don’t really know what to take. Ibuprofen isn’t helping and it’s not a migraine. I am so frustrated.