Author: Midnight Demon

I have another migraine. Started off as a headache. I took the new med about an hour ago. I’ve been trying to study but it’s been hard. I’m not taking the exam as I can’t concentrate. I’ll try tomorrow.

I slept in late. I got up after 1230. I had taken my meds early when I went pee after my med alarm went off. I just planned on studying today. I wrote a ton of notes in my notebook. I had two cups of coffee. I was feeling kind of sad because my three best friends are all going through some hard times. It’s hard to see.

After I did my notes, I felt almost ready and confident to take my exam. I am just going to go over the neurotransmitters one more time tomorrow and then I think I might as well take it. I then started doing research for my final paper. I think topic has to be in Thurs. I have seven sources. I plan on having at least ten. I found a good paper written by the suicidologist I know. The other sources are mostly medical journals so wouldn’t have the suicidologists I know. Feels good doing research again.

I’ve been sneezing since I got up. My sinuses are hurting. I got a migraine and the new medicine worked. I didn’t get a headache afterwards. It’s cold today. I had to shut off the ceiling fan. I got post nasal drip. I don’t feel sick so think this is just allergies.

Going to try and read my library book tonight. Will be fun.

Headache and pissy mood

I woke up in a pissy mood. I didn’t care to wake up, like ever. I didn’t want to leave my house today. I felt shitty, emotionally. I also had an allergy attack where I was sneezing and my eyes were tearing. It’s been like this all week. I’ve been taking Nyquil, mostly to help with sleep. I made one cup of coffee and then called a cab to go into Boston. I got to my appointment early. I went to Starbucks and had a mocha. I stayed for a little bit and then realized I had to walk to the office which was going to take some doing. So I left. I got out of breath a little bit and my legs hated me. I checked in and then went upstairs to see my DMH worker. We had a good visit.

I thought about going to the grocery store to get some ground beef to make Manwich but I didn’t feel like it. I took the train home. I planned on studying but I took a nap for about a half hour. I didn’t sleep, I just rested. Then I made some spicy ramen noodles for dinner. I got a headache from the spicy stuff. I took some Tylenol. My sinuses are still hurting.

I’m going to study for an hour or so tonight. I have until Tues to take the exam. I am so fucking nervous. I keep going over the slides and stuff but it’s not sticking in my brain. I got to somehow make it stick.

You’re a wreck

I had a bit of insomnia last night. It took forever for me to get to sleep last night. I had to pee several times and find 50 million positions to get comfortable. I was also wicked thirsty which didn’t help the pee situation. I overslept after I shut off my med alarm. I just couldn’t get up so I didn’t go to class. I went to Starbucks to study and wrote down some pathways. Then I got overwhelmed. All the pathways were similar but like one thing changed. I went back to neurotransmitters and hormones. I wanted to take the quiz but I didn’t. I didn’t know how many times I would have to take it to get 100. It just increased my anxiety. I came home and I had a slight headache. I tried taking a nap but I really couldn’t. I took the quiz and after like five or six attempts and driving myself crazy, I finally passed.

My neuro called the new migraine med in the pharmacy. I finally got a call from the pharmacy as to why they can’t fill it. My insurance said they already did. Ok. I had to call my insurance. I had to be on hold for a bit and they approved it. I called the pharmacy back and they filled it. Then I left Starbucks to pick it up. I then took the bus to the other pharmacy to get my Nyquil. I had to make a stop before going home. I had to pee and I just made it home. I have been sneezing all fricken day. I am going to use it tonight.

Tomorrow I am seeing my DMH worker. I am glad because I am kind of nervous with everything. I am especially worried about my sister as she works for the government. The terror begins. I am trying not to let it as I know it really doesn’t start until Jan 20^th. I hope I am in therapy by then.