Author: Midnight Demon

Scared to see the ending

I went to bed before the end of the election so I had no idea who won when I got up today. I am not happy. I feel like the terror I felt back in 2016 is back and it’s only going to get worse because he has worse minions in his grasp.

I took a shower in the late afternoon. I ordered some cold medicine but because of the age limits, I couldn’t get it delivered. I have to pick it up. I will do that tomorrow after class. I have a sinus headache that I have had all day. My neuro hasn’t called in the new medicine yet. My pharmacy called this morning but didn’t leave a message so I don’t know what they wanted. I am annoyed. Now I got to message the doc and be like can you call in the med so I have it before the weekend in case I get a migraine??

The professor was kind enough to make a study slides of the pathways we need to know. I just saw one of the extra pyramidal system and I am like, WTF. Too much information for my brain right now. I will go over the neurotransmitters and hormones. I need to do some studying. I have a quiz to do by Fri.

I don’t know if I am getting a cold or not. I know my sinuses hurt but I have clear drainage. Just need to wait it out. I hate the wait out period. I had wicked vivid dreams last night, some of which gave me headaches. It’s been warm the past few days. Today temps reached 80. It’s ridiculous. I haven’t put my PJs on yet. It’s kind of warm in my room. I might have to turn on the AC. In November!

I went downstairs to see my sister after she came home from work. My other sister was there. She said I need a haircut because my hair is uneven. I said the front is thinning out and I am not getting it cut for at least a month. I didn’t tell her why. She is always criticizing me so fuck her. When I came down for coffee, I found that my breakfast blend was on the counter. My sister likes it. Nice but she doesn’t help pay for it. She also has been using my half and half.

I got a damn migraine. I checked the pharmacy to see if they have my new med and they do. They just can’t fill it for some reason so I asked why. I am waiting for a call back. Until then, I am taking what I have. And I won’t be studying tonight. Fuck.

Day 3 of shitty headaches

I woke up with a headache and it turned into a migraine. Then after the migraine went away, it turned back into a headache. I managed to get a few assignments done but still have two more to do. I will try tomorrow as I can fucking find the information I need anywhere. I might skip it and just complete the rest of the paper. I don’t care at this point.

I had ordered blueberry muffins and someone ate two of them last night. I had the last one this morning with my coffee. My sister was home and she was bitching the whole time I was in the kitchen drinking my coffee. It was not pleasant and didn’t help my fucking headache.

I had some turkey and pupusas for dinner. Then I did my med boxes. I kept forgetting to do them. This headache is making everything worse. My thinking isn’t clear. I just want to lie down. I wanted to sleep in till noon but my damn sister played her music so fucking loud and then opened her door. That was the end of me resting. Tomorrow she goes to work so I have the house to myself again. No bitching or music.

I have decided to do “no shave November”. I was going to shave my head at the barber but decided to let it grow for the month. Maybe I will let it be. I can’t really decide what to do with my hair. I like it short and bald. I like it a little long. Just sucks that the front is thin and some spots bald because of T. I have a receding line. It sucks.

I was hoping to read my library book tonight but this headache isn’t making it likely. I’m probably going to go to bed early like I did last night. Maybe tomorrow I can go to Starbucks and finish my homework assignments. I haven’t heard back from the professor yet but I am sure I will tomorrow. I got to email my neuro tomorrow about these damn headaches. Nothing seems to be working. I am at my wits end. I stopped taking the gabapentin because I was just gaining weight from it. It really wasn’t helping the migraines or the headaches at all.