Author: Midnight Demon

Trans Visibility Day 2025

I talked with my DMH worker today. It was a good talk, though I don’t think she understands that the Felon is taking away federal grants and money away from transgender students. Yes, I am a low income earner, but that isn’t enough to get me the money I need for my degree. I might be able to get money from school. Fuck this is so nerve racking. So today on visibility I am trying to be visible and heard.

I made a cake today that I have been meaning to make since I got the ingredients. I forgot one ingredient, the milk so it was kind of thin. It was still good and lemony. I might make it again, with all the ingredients this time.

I had a weird night of dreams being in the psych hosp. The social worker said that she spoke to my sister and I said I wish you would have told me as she has been drinking since 11. I don’t know why I thought this. My sister wouldn’t drink at that time. I don’t know. I kept looking for my room and when I found it, my bedding was changed to red sheets. My roommate had changed my sheets and I refused to use them. Then I woke up. I wanted to read my book today but I went to language lab and I am so tired. I used most of my spoons to make the cake. I tried to do some Italian work but I was failing miserably. I just looked at the quiz and I am freaking out. At least with the language lab I now understand a little more about reflexive verbs and which auxiliary verb to use.

I ran out of spoons to read. I am tired. The Sox lost again today. First inning was completely terrible. Devers continues to struggle. It hasn’t been a week yet and already he hasn’t gotten one hit. He keeps on striking out. I don’t know if he will catch up. He didn’t have too many Spring Training games. I am trying to be patient with him but it is disappointing. Their record is 1-4 right now. Sad.

Sunday scaries

I had a dream last night that I had missed a lot of class and was trying to get to class but didn’t have the book with me. By the time I got the book, the class was over. I felt bad. In the dream, I was hospitalized for psych. My mother was in it too. I am surprised I didn’t get a headache when I woke up.

I did the meds for the week. I am starting a new supplement for migraines. I hope it works. I asked my neuro about it and she said it is good. We’ll see how it works out.

I need to read my book today. I don’t like it. I finished my Italian homework yesterday. I had to email the professor to see what I was doing wrong. I was all confused. Quiz is next week. I hope I do better this time around or I will have to change to pass/fail for the class.

I am talking to my DMH worker tomorrow. We had to switch days a bit. I like talking to her. She is really supportive. It is still cold in my room. I had taken off my long sleeve shirt to brush my teeth and didn’t put it back on. I got to get ready soon. It’s my brother in law’s birthday today. We are going to a bar. Should be fun. My niece isn’t going to be there because she has to work. I wanted to get pics of her and my older niece. Maybe some other time.

I have therapy this week. I don’t know if it will be in person yet. Depends on how Tues goes for me. I need to stop in the local bookstore and pick up the books I bought. I want to see the new location as they moved. I don’t know how far away it is from the station. It’s been a while since I have been in that part of Mass Ave.

I just weighed myself. I am down four pounds. I haven’t been eating the past few days. Just small meals. Last night, I just made tater tots. I should take out the chicken so I can have dinner for tomorrow night. If we have BBQ sauce, I will make it with that. Otherwise I will just roast it with some potatoes. I have a cake I have been meaning to make. Maybe I will make it tomorrow. I like making things when my sister isn’t home because she always bitches at me.

My Sox lost again last night. I fell asleep listening to the game. I woke up to basketball on the app. I shut it off and then went back to sleep. I woke up around 1am and realized I didn’t plug in my phone. I was glad I woke up or my phone would have been dead in the morning. I just had one cup of coffee so far today. Game is on at 2 today. New pitcher is on, though I can’t remember if he came out late during last season or not.

Saturday Blog 29032025

I don’t know what I am doing in my Italian class. I emailed the professor and he said I am confusing the tenses. I did the best I could. I did the discussion piece. I just got finished with it.

I barely slept last night. I don’t know why. I am so tired. It was raining off and on today and it has been really cold. My sister shut the heat off so it’s really cold in my room. I wanted to leave the house today but couldn’t get myself together enough to do it. Maybe Monday.

The felon is going after California to out transgender students. Only a matter of time before he comes to my state. I am so fucking scared. I want to die. The stress is killing me.

My feet keep cramping and I don’t know why. It hurts. My feet are cold so that doesn’t help. Ballgame is on soon. I plan on listening. Last night they lost. I ended up turning it off after the 5^th inning. They were already losing and I knew they weren’t going to win the game. Devers hasn’t gotten a hit yet. And I guess he will no longer be playing third base. He will be the DH. I hope I can listen to at least the 6^th inning tonight. Game is an hour earlier so I hope so.