Author: Midnight Demon

I’ve been keeping track of my migraines since the 21st of Oct. I’ve had 6 migraines, including today. I tried to work through it but I couldn’t.  I have 7 things to get done by Monday so this migraine needs to be gone.

I met with my professor today. We talked about neurotransmitters and stuff for the exam. I am so overwhelmed. She wanted me to utilize the disability center but I don’t think I need their services. I know i can do this. I just need to fucking focus. The hardest part is going to be knowing the pathways. I got a week and a few days before exam to memorize them. But having a migraine every other day is not fucking helping me.

I tried listening to music today and it was a trigger for my brain exploding. I was sensitive to sound. I forgot to do my Italian yesterday. I don’t know how that slipped. I think I should be ok for class as long as it isn’t super intensive. It’s a 102 level so I hope not. I am trying for 2 classes next semester. Umass is finally free tuition so I want to take advantage of it.

I was up early and I am wicked tired fighting this migraine. I laid down for a little bit and it was almost an hour. I didn’t want to get up but I was thirsty. I had three cups of coffee and some juice. I made some burgers. I swear i could live off them. I place my grocery order to be delivered tomorrow. I’m running low on powerade. I had some weird dreams but I slept through the night. I have to be up early tomorrow for the delivery.

Happy Halloween! Today I am celebrating the publication of my book by going out to the pub for a drink and burger before the concert. I am seeing the beautiful Jennifer Nettles. I’ve been listening to her and little big town all day.

I was so grateful class was on zoom today. I met with the professor after class and we went over my exam. I made some stupid mistakes and others were just guesses as I didn’t know. I got one answer changed as it was just on the cusp of the area that was correct.

Went to the concert and had a wicked good time. Sugarland was so fucking good. I love Jennifer Nettles so much. Her vocals were phenomenal. I recorded Babe and Little Big Town’s Better Man, both Taylor Swift songs that got awards. Karen Fairfield did an excellent job performing Better Man. It was so awesome seeing it live. My cousin came with me and she had a good time.

A sneezing and migraine day

I’ve been sneezing since I woke up this morning. I’ve also had a runny nose. I hope I am not getting sick as I got a concert to go to on Thursday. Professor say some classmates have had covid so I hope I am not coming down with that. I missed all last week and haven’t been in contact with anyone that is sick but then I have been traveling on the T so. I went to class today and I was so anxious. I spoke with the professor after class and we are going to go over the exam on Friday. On the way home, I got overwhelmed with everything. She makes it seem so easy and then my brain can’t process it after class. When I got to the station I was going up the stairs and the back of my neck hurt where my migraines usually start. It went away by the time I got to the platform but soon as I reached the home, I was in migraine hell. My head just exploded. I thought it was because I was just hungry. Nope. Food didn’t help. I tracked in my note app.

I had a meeting with my psychiatrist this morning. It went well but he didn’t have any answers for me either. My pcp never responded to the message I sent. I don’t care. I guess being out of breath and having palpitations is the new me. I am so tired of fighting the system that is supposed to help you.  My psychiatrist didn’t say anything about the suicidal stuff. I didn’t mention it either. It’s on the back burner for now. I still haven’t heard from the therapy place.

I have a meeting tomorrow with a therapist/consultant that I met with a couple months ago. I really need this appointment to vent as I am losing my mind between class and migraines. My sister and I got into a fight last night. The stress is just killing me so I am probably getting a freaking cold.