Author: Midnight Demon

Cold November Rain

I have been up since 0400. I tried going back to sleep around 7ish after I took my morning meds but I never slept. I gave up around 10 and got out of bed to make something to eat and have coffee. I then spent the next couple of hours on the phone doing phone calls that needed to be done. I sent a message to my pcp about how crappy I have been feeling and to question a lab value from yesterday. They said to hydrate and if I am not feeling better by Friday, I could be seen then. I am to drink around three liters of fluid. I have been having a hard time drinking just plain water. I want to drink coffee but I don’t think that will help me.

It has been cold in my room all day. My feet are freezing and I have been contemplating putting on a long sleeve shirt. It is also cold in the house. We haven’t turned on the heat just yet. I don’t mind the cold but my back and CRPS foot does. My back has been sore today for whatever reason, most likely due to the temps going from 80 to 40 within 48 hours. The pain in my foot was really bad. I had to take pain meds to ease it and gabapentin. Surprisingly, within an hour, pain levels went down.

I had therapy today. We talked more about my suicidality. I feel really sad. I’ve been trying to write all day but my thoughts have been inconsistent. I kept zoning out today. I was able to nap for a couple of hours. I still feel tired. Had bad night with headaches and dreams again.

My CT results came back. Everything is normal. Wish I had something to explain the headaches though. I see the neuro tomorrow morning. I have a stupid headache now. I feel awful. Been trying to drink water. I’m not really thirsty tho. I haven’t eaten today. Just some fig newton’s. It has been the only thing I want. I don’t feel like cooking something.

I got to get my meds tomorrow. I tried calling the pharmacy today because two of my meds are still in process. I’ll try tomorrow after my neuro appt. I am tired and plan on going to bed soon.